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It has been a while since I’ve posted praise or a testimony. @Nancy has me considering the beginning of my relationship with God. I’ve shared it before, I think, but it was so long ago I’m sure it has been lost in the many posts I’ve made since coming to the board.
One prayer God answered immediately was the prayer for Him to show me what He sees when He looks me. I have this friend who I’ve always thought was exceptionally beautiful on the outside. She has it together, traveling the world as a missionary. People gravitate towards her. I used to pray for God to make me someone else...someone like my friend Sherry. This was a constant prayer...to be like her. Along with the prayer for Him to show me the truth about me. During those times of prayer and seeking, God’s love grew so powerful over my life and I became certain of having the Father I had always craved. Not long after the prayers to see me through His eyes...a truth was uncovered. A truth I never expected which was the Father I had grown up thinking was my father...was not my biological father. My biological father was a man my mother had an affair with and I was the result. After forty some years I find out I have three brothers and sister I had never met. They had grown up and went to school with me. I looked my sister up on Facebook one night and she is only one year younger than I am. The resemblance was undeniable. The night she was told she has a sister, she started screaming and crying. Her husband had to console her as she couldn’t breathe. I am her only sister. later she told me all her life she felt like someone was missing from her life. Her parents had known about me and my biological father must have felt such guilt that he opted out of my life, he later brought home a little girl he adopted, then later sent her back when it didn’t work out. I never got to meet my father before he died. The point of sharing this is, God had prepared me before the secret came out. He had shown me that I do have a Father and would never be fatherless again. I’ve never experienced any anger or resentment but only peace over my beginning. Of course, there is way more work God has done in my life that has brought me to the place where I can honestly say...today...I no longer crave to be someone else. Those prayers of coveting my friends appearance or attention or ministry are long gone. I’m content with being who God created me to be. I’m fascinated everyday at His work and know it is a great Honor to be fully known by God.
One prayer God answered immediately was the prayer for Him to show me what He sees when He looks me. I have this friend who I’ve always thought was exceptionally beautiful on the outside. She has it together, traveling the world as a missionary. People gravitate towards her. I used to pray for God to make me someone else...someone like my friend Sherry. This was a constant prayer...to be like her. Along with the prayer for Him to show me the truth about me. During those times of prayer and seeking, God’s love grew so powerful over my life and I became certain of having the Father I had always craved. Not long after the prayers to see me through His eyes...a truth was uncovered. A truth I never expected which was the Father I had grown up thinking was my father...was not my biological father. My biological father was a man my mother had an affair with and I was the result. After forty some years I find out I have three brothers and sister I had never met. They had grown up and went to school with me. I looked my sister up on Facebook one night and she is only one year younger than I am. The resemblance was undeniable. The night she was told she has a sister, she started screaming and crying. Her husband had to console her as she couldn’t breathe. I am her only sister. later she told me all her life she felt like someone was missing from her life. Her parents had known about me and my biological father must have felt such guilt that he opted out of my life, he later brought home a little girl he adopted, then later sent her back when it didn’t work out. I never got to meet my father before he died. The point of sharing this is, God had prepared me before the secret came out. He had shown me that I do have a Father and would never be fatherless again. I’ve never experienced any anger or resentment but only peace over my beginning. Of course, there is way more work God has done in my life that has brought me to the place where I can honestly say...today...I no longer crave to be someone else. Those prayers of coveting my friends appearance or attention or ministry are long gone. I’m content with being who God created me to be. I’m fascinated everyday at His work and know it is a great Honor to be fully known by God.
