You hit all my heart strings....I am so touched and moved by your wisdom and truth and it has me crying a river. I can only believe the Holy Spirit put these words in you to speak to me because it is too spot on and hit the nail on the head. You see me...The concept of "self" as an independent being with unloving desires and lusts is confusing since it's not really true except in our minds. I think it is a "false self" in fact. It's fiction, but it's a fiction that can hypnotize and enslave us. The "true self" is godly since it is Spirit, part of God Himself.
This "false self" can be said to have its own will too -- but that too is an illusion. I call it the "false will." The person who tells himself he wants to sin isn't in his right mind. That is not really what he wants to do; but if he believes this is an evil world and he has to be evil to survive, he can convince himself he needs to sin.
You write of three years. That sounds right. Paul spent his three years. . . . When the heart turns to God and craves to return to a pure state (from which it fell), God begins to show that person the delusions and follies of the past.
You write of being humbled. That is wonderful. Thanks to God for blessing you so. What is humility? I think it's being honest and factual, even about ourselves. No amount of lying or denying is going to change the state of the human heart if it's given to follies we could call wickedness. Pride is the worst enemy since pride is fiction, unreal. It is a blessing then when someone is ready to accept the correction of his heart by God. What is wrong can be made right. There is no more need to pretend everything's fine while we deny another part of us is trembling knowing all is not fine.
Hebrews 12:6 For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.
Revelation 3:19 As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent.
Humility makes it possible for the person who was wrong to become right, and that person rejoices when he finds out where he was wrong since he can be what he always wanted to be -- someone who wants to love and be loved. It is interesting then that the Hebrew word for "repent" also means "comfort."
There can also be a point to not having any human teacher. Human teachers serve their purpose, to be sure; but there can some a time when God knows someone is ready to stand on his own, to find out things for himself, and having human help at that point might short-circuit things. The person may be glad to hear the helpful words from others, but sometimes everything gets pulled out from under him like a rug so he depends more and more on God. Only God knows when the person is ready for this test.
God Bless You @Giuliano
And Praise unto you my Father....Praise, Glory and Honor....I give to you, Lord.....I want You and only You to be Glorified in this.
Thank you, Abba,Father.
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