- Sep 22, 2012
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I'm 24, male. I've surrendered my life to God about 8 months ago. He has blessed me even in this wretched economy and I'm in a very high profile position at a Fortune 500 company.
However, recently I got hurt by someone who professed to be a Christian and appeared to have her spiritual life together. I looked up to her and wanted to be like her, but she turned out to be broken and severely messed up like everyone else. I'm aware none of us are perfect, but I became pretty embittered after that and stopped praying for a few weeks.
Despite that, my career has been soaring. I am single-handedly, at the age of 24, writing algorithms that direct billions of dollars of revenue a year. I keep going on the up and up and everyone is telling me how wonderful I am and all that. I used to be good at thanking God for everything He's given me, but I don't know why I choose to still be angry with Him.
Without God, it's not pride that is going to hurt me; it's my inability to handle success. I'm told by strangers I'm attractive but I've been lonely all my life. I've been the guy in the corner studying quietly and was invisible to everyone. I had no money and I was broke. Now my life turns upside down and I am surrounded by corporate professionals telling me how amazing I am. Women are throwing themselves at me and everything is just so surreal. All this success, praise, and attention has to be a dream.
I'm still mad at God, He put a nice Christian girl in my life only to have her hurt me and make me question my own faith. There's a voice in my head telling me to indulge in all the pleasures I've been starved from all my life: wealth, power, worldliness, materialism, sleeping around, etc. What am I saving myself for? I know that if I go down that road I could risk losing everything I have gained. Someone please pray for me
However, recently I got hurt by someone who professed to be a Christian and appeared to have her spiritual life together. I looked up to her and wanted to be like her, but she turned out to be broken and severely messed up like everyone else. I'm aware none of us are perfect, but I became pretty embittered after that and stopped praying for a few weeks.
Despite that, my career has been soaring. I am single-handedly, at the age of 24, writing algorithms that direct billions of dollars of revenue a year. I keep going on the up and up and everyone is telling me how wonderful I am and all that. I used to be good at thanking God for everything He's given me, but I don't know why I choose to still be angry with Him.
Without God, it's not pride that is going to hurt me; it's my inability to handle success. I'm told by strangers I'm attractive but I've been lonely all my life. I've been the guy in the corner studying quietly and was invisible to everyone. I had no money and I was broke. Now my life turns upside down and I am surrounded by corporate professionals telling me how amazing I am. Women are throwing themselves at me and everything is just so surreal. All this success, praise, and attention has to be a dream.
I'm still mad at God, He put a nice Christian girl in my life only to have her hurt me and make me question my own faith. There's a voice in my head telling me to indulge in all the pleasures I've been starved from all my life: wealth, power, worldliness, materialism, sleeping around, etc. What am I saving myself for? I know that if I go down that road I could risk losing everything I have gained. Someone please pray for me