So something I've learned is that there is a subconscious problem if one is constantly in fight or flight mode and cortisol high. Your brain alarms you when something is wrong, but your nervous system needs to realize to let go when your not in survival mode. This effects every aspect of your body. You have to go back to safe mode. When your not stress you tap into your creative mind and release healthy chemicals in the body. The subconscious brain has no memories. One has to emotionally regulate and if you have been in an environment where that is not accepted it contributes to the problems. When it is rejected we xmcan fall prey into accepting false beliefs and also false beliefs about ourselves if we aren't careful. I think this goes back to spiritual warfare and self talk and renewing our minds. We have ti reset our system by repetition everyday. The enemy lies to us and attacks us. I don't mean for my topic post on this forum to be long winded. I'm just seeking help from believers from the attacks I've had and even nerve surgery failure. If a car breaks down and you don't know how to fix it you havevto get help and from honest people. I have to imagine it getting better and how that would feel. The lies say not to. I can't go through this alone. I need hope. Thank you for reading. I know the world doesn't revolve around me. I just need Christian friends