My brother Clint,
Unless Masonry has changed dramatically you won't get into one of their meetings let alone be allowed to ask questions.
You worry too much about too many things.....The human instinct is to wallow in mystery and to exalt in pretending to its mastery.
The same propensity is just as prevalent in Christianity and forums wouldn't even get off the ground if that were not so.
I'll tell you a bit about Masonry, 'corse I know from first hand experience.
It comes in a range of devotional sincerity (just like Christianity) with some joining because they think it will further their social climb, and some joining because they sincerely believe in its virtues.
When I first married, my wife's father was Grand Worshipful Master of a Lodge and he was a sincere believer in its virtues.
One tenant is that you are not allowed to know about it before you join.....you are supposed to join purely because of your respect and admiration for someone you know to be a member, and then you learn about it after you have joined and sworn an incredible pledge of allegience and secrecy.
Father in Law was desperate that I should join but because he believed in the practice of not 'preaching or evangelising' for my membership the nearest he would get would be to leave his little 'masonic bible' accidentally on the mantle shelf after he had gone to bed when I was staying at his house, in the hope that I would notice it and ask if I could join.
Being a Christian, I'm afraid I broke his heart by declining to even consider allegience to something that I was not allowed to know about until after I had committed.
He was the most sincere example of Masonry that I have ever met and a wonderfully loving and generous man to his death bed.
BUT... he died with a broken heart inasmuch as not a single one of his fellow masons visited him whilst he was dying in hospital and his wife was furious when, at his burial, one of their representatives nevertheless insisted on pushing to the front to perform some sort of sprinkling ritual over his coffin.
Tell that to your brother, is all I can suggest.
Mike.