Ah,,, The bully.
Bullies are cowards nothing more. They pick on people that they think are weaker than them, either emotionaly or physically. Now, this isn't to say that you are weak in either of these.
I know from my own experience how demeaning it can be and humiliating it all is. It's endlessly frustrating and can consume your whole life making you feel imprisioned. Afraid to go to school, or go out and do the things you love to do.
I had bully problems from the first time I went to school. Sometimes having to fight several at the same time. I had those problems all the way into Highschool.
I also know what it's like to want to die. I've even tried to commit suicide and survived. (I wont go into that story right now)
One thing, I'm an adult now of 33. I have a beautiful wife and 2 great kids. I have a nice place to live and a good job. Not to say there hasn't been struggles and hard times along the way.
Had I died when I thought I wanted to, I wouldn't be living the great life I have now.
They would've missed out on a great life, and I would've missed out.
I don't advocate violence, so I'm not suggesting that you go and fight this guy or these guys. Find someone that can help resolve this problem. As wussy as it sounds, try talking to this person. Sometimes standing up for yourself helps.
Another thing that sounds pretty stupid is,,,, Take some time when you're alone. Write down some qualities you like about yourself. Take an inventory of all the good things you have to offer the world. Daydream a little about your future. Imagine your life 10 or 20 years from now. Think of the type of person you WANT to be and WHO you want to be.
Don't allow these cowards to rob you of the joy of your life. As misserable as it is, don't let them bring you down just because they hate their lives. They're scared, and hurting inside, they feel weak and insecure and they feel worthless. They have very little self esteem and no speakable tallent or intellect. All they're trying to do is make themselves feel better, and they percieve in their mind that others look at them as strong.
A wise man once said, "Anyone can conquer the world. It takes a strong man to conquer himself."
Your life will get better. Don't Give up!
The Lord has many great things ahead for you and many more challenges.