You are so special, your family and friends love you. Be strong, don't give up. BLAH, BLAH, BLAH.......You've heard all this before time and time again. Am I right? Has it helped you yet? Now, you want to know why!?This battle that you have been facing, is NOT a battle against flesh and blood Eph. 6:12-13 MY B-I-B-L-E says that 'The DEVIL comes to steal, kill, and destroy. But, Jesus has come to GIVE LIFE, and give it more abundantly. John 10:10STEAL - your hope of a future,KILL - the body, because the devil can not kill your spirit.DESTROY - your life. The devil HATES us, I know the plans that I have for you declares the LORD, plans to prosper you, NOT to harm you, to give you a HOPE and a FUTURE! There was an old cartoon way before your time I'm sure. And this guy had a little angel on one shoulder, and a little devil on the other. The devil would tell him to do mean, hurtful things, and the angel would tell him that he should do nice things, and help people. The guy sometimes would listen to the devil, and sometimes the angel. God has appointed you an angel, to watch over you. Just the same the devil has appointed his angels (demons) over you also, to give you bad thoughts and ideas. So, when you have thoughts of suicide, it's just that little demon telling lies. 'You'll be better off', 'Nobody would miss you anyways', 'That will teach them, then it will be to late'. The demons are good at telling lies, they've been doing it for over 2000 years. Resist the Devil and he will flee. If you are not baptized in the Holy Spirit yet, then you need to spend time in prayer, and in Gods word. A Christian that does not have the Holy Spirit in them, is like a Police Officer without a gun. You can tell a criminal to 'STOP, IN THE NAME OF THE LAW, STOP, POLICE!' the criminal will see that you have no gun, and he will laugh at you and keep going. A Christian, has the authority to say 'IN THE NAME OF JESUS, I BIND EVERY DEMONIC SPIRIT FROM OPERATING AGAINST ME!' But, there is no power behind your words, so the devil will laugh at you and keep going. Mark 16:17 'These signs will follow those who believe, in My name they will cast out demons, they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover.' 2 Corinthians 12: 7 thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me -Please study and feel free to ask questions on the Baptism of the Holy Spirit. God Bless you!!