I've taken a step back to examine my life as of late, and I'm feeling bad about it. Everywhere I look I see sin and it's something impossible to escape in this physical world. The sinful nature of man is in blatant defiance of God and Gods nature and this frightens and saddens me. My feelings on this are exacerbated by the fact that I am a very critical person, especially when critiquing myself. I want to be perfect before the Lord but, knowing this is not possible has me feeling worthless and undeserving. Its become hard for me to be happy about anything that I do, because I'm wondering if it's sinful. I'm constantly getting the feeling that I'm playing with my life and defying God in everything that I do. Sometimes I look to other people for assurance but in the end, your sins are between you and the Father, there will be no excuses and just because your pastor said it was ok doesn't mean its actually ok. I'm quite frightened of what God will say to me when the time comes. I would just like to be told that I am good and loved in some way. I know full well God loves us, that he wants all of us to be saved and be with him. But I fall very short of Gods expectations for men and I just don't like it.I have prayed about this a few times in the last 2 days, but I just wanted to put it out there. Being reminded time and time again of how sinful I am hasn't worked out well for my happiness.