It was not really a poll. just a question.
To the pull of your conversation toward a direct response. An understandable and not entirely objectionable response to Socratic methodology.
But before I read your post, this may address it well enough. I'll find out after I write this message, which begins with a riddle;
I am feared by the powerful, Yet shaped by the helpless.
Kings shudder at my whispers, While beggars use me freely.
Once given, I can never be taken back.
Yet when earned, I may be lost forever.
What am I?
The answer is the nature of our discussion here, the belief that man has a will with the capacity to interfere with that of the Master. It is not possible to interfere with the will of the All Powerful One. There is love and reward or disbelief and condemnation. That's it. The answer to life is "true or false."
And He is True.
He made each of us according to an intricate and perfect plan. He has given me insight into why He created me for the purpose of sharing with you. I will elaborate on why I am so relieved to be who He has made me without a will of my own, the one I earned but lost forever and could not be happier about it.
Please understand, it is my joy and love I wish to share, that which I found in Jesus Christ.
He made me to be a machine, a dedicated program, a purposeful tool, a devoted zealot of His service. I have not done this work, I have not obtained these words of my own volition, I have not spoken boldly for my own name's sake, I do everything I do now in search of alignment with His direct commands or with His character. I am obsessed with Him.
And again, not of me, He has done all of this! He works through me now as He always has. I thought I was desperately seeking Him as a cure to the most intense pain of the heart one could imagine, but that is how He has directed me. By profound sensation and longing for meaning and purpose.
Since He opened my eyes, He is as a compass within me, pulling me to His righteousness the way sin used to pull me to death. I can still err, technically, but if my errors are perceived it is for me to learn from my mistakes, otherwise His corrections are mostly direct to my soul. And I LOVE His correction!
I hated hated HATED myself before Him. I despised my actions and lamented my words and tore myself for regret and buried myself for shame and tormented myself for weakness and longed desperately for righteous living. But I refused to give up. I suffered so much embarrassment for all of my confessions through life, and I cherish every one for what it has brought me.
He took several deep wounds I could not escape the sights or sensations of and turned them into gloriously meaningful wonders of my life that I would not trade for anything. He has transformed my entire life into a sensible work of His magnificent planning and operation!
Don't you see? Look at Proverbs 16:9! It speaks directly of this!
"A man plans his course,
but the Lord directs his steps."
He has directed my steps all along because He has directed everything all along which means everything is actually perfect and exactly as it should be according to His plan which means all the elect need to do is what He tells them because eternity is just around the corner.
And I have no free will because I have no desire against Him, nothing of me would willfully conflict with Him, no part of me lusts to defy Him, He pulls me to Him and I cherish the experience of it which I sought for so long among His promises to us all.
Okay, now I will read your post, thank you so much again for your interactions.