Thanks Nancy I appreciate your sentiments...;)
I do think about moving state but it's not an easy thing to do... Ive always wanted to tour Oz in a campervan but I'm not at that stage in my life where I can freely do that... Just changing house is a huge task... Changing state is massiff... I don't know anyone anywhere else... All my friends and family are here...
My parents are at that age where they'll be needing more assistance soon... I don't want to leave Melbourne while my mum and dad are still here... The thing I missed the most when I was in jail was just being with my mum and dad properly around the dinner table... :)
So for now I'll see if I can grind it out... See how my industry looks next year... If there is any work... My olds are a buffer between myself and homelessness and I can fall back on them if needed... But many of my friends don't have that buffer and I fear what will happen to them when the government stops supporting everyone...
I've have a friend also who just come out of jail... We sound like criminals but he was in there for having overdue fines and I was in off traffic offenses...

That's our government. Prison isn't just for criminals anymore...
Anyway coming out of jail is difficult to mentally readjust again... PTSD is inevitable and talking to anyone about jail is near impossible unless your talking to a former inmate... My mate went in when the world was normal and came out in this dystopian hell... Poor guy is totally lost and depressed and anxious... I can't leave him either... I have to help him as well...
PTSD is real and I had a chance to analyze the phenomenon... Being in jail without having committed a crime puts your mind in a state of stressful confusion that is not well understood... On one hand I believe prison is only for criminals but on the other hand I'm being forced to be in jail... Cognitive dissonance would mean I would change my belief like "oh well I did break the law"... But that's not me I stand firm in such beliefs... But being coerced against your will is psychological torment that is innocuous... Only after does the psychological damage reveal itself...
Anyway Cognitive dissonance is a complex psychological theory and this paricular situation of forced coercion is exactly what a lot of people are experiencing now... In many ways this is worse than jail because of isolation so I fear for the mental health and well being of people in a years time...
Life is so short we never know who will be called up or when... That's why I want to cherish and just enjoy the company of my parents when I can (and mums food)