I have talked a lot about what I desire of and need help with. The whole thing is exhausting and tiring. The more this goes on, I feel like I forget who I am. It's a process and a battle. That's why I keep posting about it. I continue to need prayers for my troubling situation.
I had pleaded to God so many times and getting weary. I wanted God to break confusion from me, if he is with me on my intentions of my desire. God has allowed the situation I'm in to happen. It's been a year now, and I've asked God what more he needs of this. Satan is using my mom against me, and also other people against me. It's driving me to the point where I have to play the 'why have you forsaken me' card. I am going to continue to get mad as long as this goes on. Especially if more of my time is wasted somewhere I can't stand to be in. I'm begging God to not allow this to keep going further.
Maybe God is with me on what I want. I'm going to need prayer to help my unbelief. As long as this goes on I'm going to be a doubting Thomas. I have to see it to believe it. For God to resolve the issues I am dealing with. As it is right now, all this situation does is lead me to bitterness.
Then the fact that Satan does stuff. Satan is the thief who comes to steal, kill, and destroy. God allowed my situation to happen, and probably will relieve me from this, but Satan is doing things to keep it going. There is blowback when you go against Satan. I'm marking all demons who devise a plot/scheme against me.
Just like the pharaoh of Egypt who won't let the Israelites go to their freedom God was leading them to, Satan won't let go and is persistent. Please pray against all the works of Satan trying to prevent me of my desire and the help that I need. Pray against all the frustration the devil is causing. I wish to get out of Florida and return to Oregon in the area I was formerly residing in. Pray that all the works of Satan blocking me be plagued and destroyed. Let Christ Jesus lead me in my battles and the direction of where I shall go.
I had pleaded to God so many times and getting weary. I wanted God to break confusion from me, if he is with me on my intentions of my desire. God has allowed the situation I'm in to happen. It's been a year now, and I've asked God what more he needs of this. Satan is using my mom against me, and also other people against me. It's driving me to the point where I have to play the 'why have you forsaken me' card. I am going to continue to get mad as long as this goes on. Especially if more of my time is wasted somewhere I can't stand to be in. I'm begging God to not allow this to keep going further.
Maybe God is with me on what I want. I'm going to need prayer to help my unbelief. As long as this goes on I'm going to be a doubting Thomas. I have to see it to believe it. For God to resolve the issues I am dealing with. As it is right now, all this situation does is lead me to bitterness.
Then the fact that Satan does stuff. Satan is the thief who comes to steal, kill, and destroy. God allowed my situation to happen, and probably will relieve me from this, but Satan is doing things to keep it going. There is blowback when you go against Satan. I'm marking all demons who devise a plot/scheme against me.
Just like the pharaoh of Egypt who won't let the Israelites go to their freedom God was leading them to, Satan won't let go and is persistent. Please pray against all the works of Satan trying to prevent me of my desire and the help that I need. Pray against all the frustration the devil is causing. I wish to get out of Florida and return to Oregon in the area I was formerly residing in. Pray that all the works of Satan blocking me be plagued and destroyed. Let Christ Jesus lead me in my battles and the direction of where I shall go.