Still waiting for an answer from the Holy Spirit
Incidentally a doctor who deliberately hurts a patient and then refuses to heal them would be struck off
I assure you that you will not get an answer except you humble yourself. Have you heard the story of Naaman? How he was angry when he didn't get what he expected when he wanted to be healed? But when he humbled himself and did the strange but simple thing that Elisha commanded him to do, he was healed immediately. The same way God wants us to wait and not be demanding.
I believe one reason you are experiencing the torment is to deal with your pride. God wants you to bear fruit. When he wants his children to grow he purges them. Purging is painful but in the end you will bear fruit. Don't fight with God, only he can save you. The devil is feeding you with lies that God is bad and doesn't want to help you. You will believe the lies if you don't read the bible and know the truth.
Satan is telling you that God doesn't want you to be saved whereas God said he does not want anyone to perish.
2 Kings 5:1,9-14 KJV
Now Naaman, captain of the host of the king of Syria, was a great man with his master, and honourable, because by him the Lord had given deliverance unto Syria: he was also a mighty man in valour, but he was a leper.
[9] So Naaman came with his horses and with his chariot, and stood at the door of the house of Elisha.
[10] And Elisha sent a messenger unto him, saying, Go and wash in Jordan seven times, and thy flesh shall come again to thee, and thou shalt be clean.
[11] But Naaman was wroth, and went away, and said, Behold, I thought, He will surely come out to me, and stand, and call on the name of the Lord his God, and strike his hand over the place, and recover the leper.
[12] Are not Abana and Pharpar, rivers of Damascus, better than all the waters of Israel? may I not wash in them, and be clean? So he turned and went away in a rage.
[13] And his servants came near, and spake unto him, and said, My father, if the prophet had bid thee do some great thing, wouldest thou not have done it ? how much rather then, when he saith to thee, Wash, and be clean?
[14] Then went he down, and dipped himself seven times in Jordan, according to the saying of the man of God: and his flesh came again like unto the flesh of a little child, and he was clean.