I was never going to share it at first because I thought that a lot of people on here might find me crazy, in fact they still could,.. but I told @Heart2Soul that I would share it so here goes nothing. I grew up as a Christian, but when I was a child (as @JohnDB already knows) I went to a Baptist church. However, as I grew older I decided that I didn't want to go to a church that scared me to death anymore so I left and backslid. Several years later I met John on another Christian forum, and I realized that it wasn't the church that I went to that was the problem,.. it was the people in it.
So, I was still going through a rather dark time in my life where I wasn't sure what I believed in and a part of me still believed in God, but another part of me doubted and hated Him when I started blaming all my life's problems on Him. I didn't really feel like Jesus loved me, I thought that I had sinned so much and screwed up my life so badly that at this point I was past forgiveness. That is until I watched the following video.
Earlier that day I had yelled at God demanding to know where He was and after watching this video I felt a sudden warmth inside me and felt as if God was giving me a comforting hug and telling me that He was right there and He loved me. That was the beginning of a lot of strange and unexplainable occurrences.
Now keep in mind at this point in my life I had heard the Bible but I didn't actually read or know a lot of scripture, so one day I was sitting out on my front porch and I heard a voice telling me to be still after I was questioning if I had imagined the night before or if it really happened. So I can't remember if I heard the rest of the verse or if I had looked it up first,.. but what I found next still gives me goosebumps to this day as I discovered Psalm 46:10 where it stated; "Be still and know that I am God."
It wasn't too much longer after that where I heard that God got me engraved upon the palm of His hand,.. just like Isaiah 49:16 clearly states. I knew at this point I wasn't going crazy, I couldn't be. I was hearing scripture that I didn't even know existed and I'm getting goosebumps right now just reliving this and typing this. God told me all about a friend of the family that He was there for her two miscarriages and when she had been sexually abused as a child that I didn't know about personally until I had it confirmed.
I have had visions of God sitting on His throne and what Heaven looks like and even Armageddon if anybody wants to know I can describe it plainly. However, God also speaks to me in ways that aren't scripture but could be. I remember one day when I was in the kitchen wondering to myself how could this possibly be happening and just like always I got my answer. He told me to look at the wall and told me that it didn't always exist, somebody had to build it up first and that was the same way with our relationship.
All of this has taught me that God wants to have a personal relationship with all of us and speak to all of us, but a lot of the time we don't take the time to listen. I sort of look at what happened to me as a miracle, but when you have a special relationship with Christ like I do,.. it's just an ordinary miracle. :) (Also FYI, I might have a creative mind but there's no way I could come up with a story like this if it wasn't true lol I'm not that creative.
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So, I was still going through a rather dark time in my life where I wasn't sure what I believed in and a part of me still believed in God, but another part of me doubted and hated Him when I started blaming all my life's problems on Him. I didn't really feel like Jesus loved me, I thought that I had sinned so much and screwed up my life so badly that at this point I was past forgiveness. That is until I watched the following video.
Earlier that day I had yelled at God demanding to know where He was and after watching this video I felt a sudden warmth inside me and felt as if God was giving me a comforting hug and telling me that He was right there and He loved me. That was the beginning of a lot of strange and unexplainable occurrences.
Now keep in mind at this point in my life I had heard the Bible but I didn't actually read or know a lot of scripture, so one day I was sitting out on my front porch and I heard a voice telling me to be still after I was questioning if I had imagined the night before or if it really happened. So I can't remember if I heard the rest of the verse or if I had looked it up first,.. but what I found next still gives me goosebumps to this day as I discovered Psalm 46:10 where it stated; "Be still and know that I am God."
It wasn't too much longer after that where I heard that God got me engraved upon the palm of His hand,.. just like Isaiah 49:16 clearly states. I knew at this point I wasn't going crazy, I couldn't be. I was hearing scripture that I didn't even know existed and I'm getting goosebumps right now just reliving this and typing this. God told me all about a friend of the family that He was there for her two miscarriages and when she had been sexually abused as a child that I didn't know about personally until I had it confirmed.
I have had visions of God sitting on His throne and what Heaven looks like and even Armageddon if anybody wants to know I can describe it plainly. However, God also speaks to me in ways that aren't scripture but could be. I remember one day when I was in the kitchen wondering to myself how could this possibly be happening and just like always I got my answer. He told me to look at the wall and told me that it didn't always exist, somebody had to build it up first and that was the same way with our relationship.
All of this has taught me that God wants to have a personal relationship with all of us and speak to all of us, but a lot of the time we don't take the time to listen. I sort of look at what happened to me as a miracle, but when you have a special relationship with Christ like I do,.. it's just an ordinary miracle. :) (Also FYI, I might have a creative mind but there's no way I could come up with a story like this if it wasn't true lol I'm not that creative.
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