I think this is in the wrong forum...

[Tikikala]

I gave up trying to figure it out.....but reading the forum's threads to get a clue if this is the right thread is mind-bogglingplease move it to the right thread if you don;t mind....but lately I have been feeling a bit emotionally stressed over nothing (or is it something? I can not confirm myself) and a bit mini-depressed.it gets to the point that i feel really discouraged inside myself.it gets to the point that a lot of self-destructing ideas are invading my memory space. (computer-pun, you get it?)it gets to the point that I feel like I am spiritually blind." " " " " " " feel like I should change my personality and character directly. okay, I got baptised this year at Easter.. (march 23, preciesely)maybe this is God's way of testing me...... or as James in th bible puts it, something from my self created it.which for a part i thought i am living in my own delusion, my own illusion.partly i think this is to blame on my lack of sleep and my lack of devotion with God.(here is where I go tell you that I am a HS student that barely sleep much between mini-procrastination and studying.)I don't want helpful verses...(okay, i have been re-re-re-reading psalms and proverbs....some of the verses or the main idea of it do ingrain my mind...but i want another persective of it)(and I am not saying that I am whatever-how-you-judge-me Christian... but... i want a different angle)but instead I want to know what bible characters or events in the story that i should try reading.thanks so much!P.S. I have not been here for a while!

 

[Christina]

Well you haven't given us much to go on .. its kind of hard to give you a charcters when we really dont have a clue as to what you are talking about... Do you mean your haviong doubts about your faith your life ? a sense of something about to change, do you feel you need uplifted, corrected ? you are going to have to give us a tad bit more info to work on here.

 

[Tikikala]

I don't feel doubt..... just troubled.is it okay if i can have a list of depressing/ generally negative/ going through trouble type of characters/ story...and yes, an uplifting passage(s) would be good too.it is more like....I feel like giving up.I feel pointless.I feel a degree of alone....um, yeah....is that good enough information without me giving some more info?/suddenly the word "spiritual journey" comes up in my head.maybe this is a giant hillside to climb over

 

[tim_from_pa]

(Tikikala;65955)
I don't feel doubt..... just troubled.is it okay if i can have a list of depressing/ generally negative/ going through trouble type of characters/ story...and yes, an uplifting passage(s) would be good too.it is more like....I feel like giving up.I feel pointless.I feel a degree of alone....um, yeah....is that good enough information without me giving some more info?/suddenly the word "spiritual journey" comes up in my head.maybe this is a giant hillside to climb over
Sounds like you are experiencing depression, and that comes with lack of motivation and goals if I may sound psychological for a moment. First off, make sure you are healthy physically. A little exercise, eating right and even supplementing one's diet with vitamins and minerals may help. Don't forget a restful night's sleep as well. Anything to do with brain functions for example conjures up the idea in me about B-complex vitamins. God put these nutrients here for us to consume to give us strength instead of the junk they have out there now with processed foods. So if you are on a TV-dinner (prepackaged) or Burger King diet, that may be a start to get off that stuff and eat better.Then, when you are healthy and more energetic, then you can work on your emotions. Have friends to hang around with, have a hobby or something where you help people. When I had a career where I could help people, I forgot my own troubles and felt more self-respect when I felt needed and looked up to. When I got laid off and now have this job where I'm basically a monkey all alone operating semiconductor equipment, I feel more depressed myself. So, the moral of the story is what one does can affect the outcome to at least make the depression manageable.In the spiritual side, find a church where you can get involved and help to spread the gospel. One does not need to be a minister or missionary to do that work, but maybe a person behind-the-scenes that supports a pastor or missionary. One can help supply needs for them and to reach out into the community to help the homeless. Or, on a less altruistic sounding note, one can offer their services. If you are into math like I am for example, help tutor someone in your church struggling with math. All these are some suggestions that will take mind off of self and then create a new world and frame of reference for you (as if you are becoming another person with an exciting new world). Then you will probably forget your past and leave the depressions behind.

 

[cedarhart]

Excellent advice given here. From someone who is treated for depression and PTSD, I can tell you from experience that helping others is vital to mental healthiness. I RAN to Father with my problems and feelings and He saw me through them. It took a while and it seemed that the word "wait" was always in my head. It was hard but my life is now content and my needs are met. Depression is a chemical imbalance of neurotransmitters in the brain. They can become unbalanced and trigger depression. Sometimes it is temporary and sometimes not. Work with a good doctor that can be trusted for his problem solving. There is a natural supplement called "Holy Basal" that is calming and helps one to relax that you might want to check into. Also, I am confident that some Christians are used by God to not test us, but to test others. Keep that in mind. All souls must be given opportunities to choose their course in life. How others respond to you and their own situations is very relevant and this is evaluated on Judgement Day. These are tough times.Take a stand for yourself and fight back against evil.Cedarhart

 

[Tikikala]

^ and ^^thanks for the replyI thought I kind of have depression too.... there was a night i just broke down and pray...and the the few days after that I felt relieved..on side note,I have been sleeping late because of schooland I kind of blame that for my lack of sleep and imbalance of body chemical.I keep on telling myself to get sleep.but I never have a chance.if possible, i even try to work ahead on homework so that one day I can get sleep.... at least one dayis it consider off topic if I ask about the relationship between...school and work, health, wealth (?)and another thing.I am a sophomore in HS and i still have not a career choice (and thus no college choice)this is killing me.I know that God can use any kind of person from any kind of job for his good.I have even pray for it. (although, not consistently)I have a wide interest in a lot of available subjects in school. (that sad part is I do well on them too. now with no class struggling, i can hardly tell which one is not for me) (^ I do not even get a chance with process of elimination)this might be referring to tim_from_pa about having a goal.../sighI even actually analyze my behavior and habits.I feel like I have this cycle of in-and-out mini-depression. (big enough to hit my emotion but not big enough to cause drastic behavioral change)the cycle is, kind of, similar to a Christian struggling addiction and going in and out of it.I am wondering if it is because I have not been able to do devotions for a while...or something else./headdeskI am losing control of my own analysisplease reply to me again, Thanks

 

[cedarhart]

Hi there,You seem to be pretty saavy as to how you're feeling and what's going on. At your age, you have many resources available to you for health care and guidance counseling. How long have you been communicating to others on line? You know that you don't have to make a decision on your major right now. Take pre-reqs and decide later. If school is easy for you, take AP classes for a step ahead as I'm sure you know.Talk to your parents if possible.Cedarhart

 

[Tikikala]

^"savvy".. wait, what?I think I just smiled upon seeing that word...(my goodness, how many T's have been used in my last post? Refrain repetition should be practiced.)"How long have you been communicating to others on line?"as in "online" or "on line"? that statement is not comprehended./avoiding using I's just for practice.... my brain should not function 20 things at once.thanks everyone for your replies!