Della, The person at the well in John chapter four took special notice of "living water" and readily recognized "Messiah" while the disciples still called Him "Rabbi". YOU (you yourSELF) recognize God with 'tears of sorrow' whenever you pick up the bible (sounds like love to me) and have "rivers" (John 7:38, Revelation 7:16). Congratulations, God is LOVE, the GREATEST of these, 1 Corinthians 13:13. YOU don't simply FAITH God, do you?,... no, not you,...you LOVE Him (always remember that about yourself). Get to know yourself better. Realize who you are, and get to know the real you. BE that person. Establish your identity in yourself and identify with God. "I am who I am" wants to have a personal relationship with the real you because you LOVE Him. He wants you to learn from His spirit how to "WALK BY THE SPIRIT" (since that's how you live, Galatians 5:16 and 25). You are "LOW IN SPIRIT" because you CRY/sorrow (Matthew 5:3)... There are 2 messages in scripture. You will see the second one with LOVE, and you will find "the depths of God" (1 Corinthians 2:10) and the "better things" that belong to salvation (Hebrews 6:9) because you have a spirit of love/sorrow. When you learn from God's spirit, His spirit will purify your conscience (Hebrews 9:14) and you will live according to the law of liberty (James 1:25 and 2:12). Because of your love, you will learn a "MORE EXCELLENT WAY" (1 Corinthians 12:31, the way of LOVE). The "WORD OF TRUTH" (the bible, 2 Timothy 2:15, Ephesians 1:13, John 14:6) is the INTRODUCTORY doctrine that teaches us to "HEAR" (John 10:27) the "SWORD OF THE SPIRIT" (Ephesians 6:17). His spirit is the GUARANTEE of eternal life (2 Corinthians 1:22, 2 Corinthians 5:5, Ephesians 1:14). The WHOLE fullness of God is in JESUS (Colossians 2:9) and be justified IN CHRIST (not by works, Galatians 2:16). You will receive "living water" baptism in your heart AND MIND (Romans 12:2). The "hirelings" (John 10:13) have not taught us to "enter by the door" (John 10:1).Depression is mainly an identity crisis, BUT there should be NO "self abasement" (no self abaTement/abandonment, Colossians 2:18, Colossians 2:23). Get to know yourself well.Christianity has always been under the "strong delusion" because there was no passion for the truth (2 Thessalonians 2:10). God bless you, Della.