- Mar 29, 2011
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Hi all! Been a long time! Well, hope everyone has been well.
My persecution in the workplace has finally ended. I found a new job, much better. Thanks everyone so much for your words of encouragement when I posted about that a long time ago.
Guess what! We've all heard the saying: "Keep your eyes on Jesus." I always thought that was a cool saying, but never more than this morning.
Last night a relative and I had a bad misunderstanding and I really told her off. She was in my house and I shouted at her and was so ugly and awful.
Even though I won the argument (we know there are really never any winners in an argument!), listen to what happened. Even though at first I felt so justified in what I said to her, when she left my house, that feeling of "Ha ha! She finally got hers!" only lasted about 5 minutes then i started to feel ill.
I couldn't eat, couldn't think straight, I felt awful.
I wanted to call her and discuss it and work it out, but pride stopped me. People were telling me "Ah girl, ooooo you showed her!!" and I should have felt good about it by worldly standards but I was feeling so bad.
I didn't sleep all night. When I got up this morning I was still struggling. The world would have had me not forgive her and continue being uppity and snotty to her and I admit, in the flesh, it was tempting b/c she's done some pretty nasty stuff to me. But all these thoughts held no peace for me at all. I couldn't live at peace, eat at peace, sleep at peace or feel God's presence anymore.
So I had a good cry and asked myself: "What would Jesus do?" and of course I knew the answer like all of us here do. I forgave her and called her and asked if she and my cousin would like to come to dinner this weekend. We both apologized to each other and I did then feel the peace of God, and when I cried, they were happy tears.
The world told me I shouldn't have let her off the hook that easy, that I should've held a grudge. But I quit listening to them. I knew the only Peace I would ever have is in keeping my eyes on Jesus. and when the world started trying to sway my thinking, I just kept my eyes on Jesus and the peace was incredible.
Hi to all.
Love, Marta
My persecution in the workplace has finally ended. I found a new job, much better. Thanks everyone so much for your words of encouragement when I posted about that a long time ago.
Guess what! We've all heard the saying: "Keep your eyes on Jesus." I always thought that was a cool saying, but never more than this morning.
Last night a relative and I had a bad misunderstanding and I really told her off. She was in my house and I shouted at her and was so ugly and awful.
Even though I won the argument (we know there are really never any winners in an argument!), listen to what happened. Even though at first I felt so justified in what I said to her, when she left my house, that feeling of "Ha ha! She finally got hers!" only lasted about 5 minutes then i started to feel ill.
I couldn't eat, couldn't think straight, I felt awful.
I wanted to call her and discuss it and work it out, but pride stopped me. People were telling me "Ah girl, ooooo you showed her!!" and I should have felt good about it by worldly standards but I was feeling so bad.
I didn't sleep all night. When I got up this morning I was still struggling. The world would have had me not forgive her and continue being uppity and snotty to her and I admit, in the flesh, it was tempting b/c she's done some pretty nasty stuff to me. But all these thoughts held no peace for me at all. I couldn't live at peace, eat at peace, sleep at peace or feel God's presence anymore.
So I had a good cry and asked myself: "What would Jesus do?" and of course I knew the answer like all of us here do. I forgave her and called her and asked if she and my cousin would like to come to dinner this weekend. We both apologized to each other and I did then feel the peace of God, and when I cried, they were happy tears.
The world told me I shouldn't have let her off the hook that easy, that I should've held a grudge. But I quit listening to them. I knew the only Peace I would ever have is in keeping my eyes on Jesus. and when the world started trying to sway my thinking, I just kept my eyes on Jesus and the peace was incredible.
Hi to all.
Love, Marta