Hi. My name is Cassandra...
I'm 37 years old. Married and a Christian. I'm a new Christian. I'm an introvert too...My husband and I used to go to a local non denominational church which we liked at first as we liked the pastor. He was older and we felt like we were really learning something there...But then some younger youth pastors started taking over the sermons and they were hyper, disrespectful and made inappropriate jokes that made us feel no longer at home there. I never had a chance to get to know the women there we usually left right after service.
I have only one friend. She lives in Canada and she is not a believer. She is more paganistic with her believes and she gets annoyed sometimes when I try to talk about God so I don't anymore...
I really just want a community of women who I can talk to about Jesus and my struggles. I feel very alone in this friend wise...
I don't have much of a testimony but....I was church hurt when I was younger. A pastor had stolen a goosebumps book I was reading after church hours when my grandmother was attending a sewing group and I was in the play ground...I never got it back. I was 13...Also a bunch of girls would make fun of me for wearing black (I was a little goth back then) and said they wouldn't be my friend until I got baptized so...I did...I wanted friends. I did it for them...Not for God...I didn't think much about God at that time...They still shunned me and I got very angry and left the church for...34 years...I had horrible anxiety all the time. And would see awful images of things happening to my animals in my mind...Or loved ones...It gave me so much insomnia and just awful feelings...So I told this to my very religious grandmother who asked if she could pray over me and I said OK...And she did...And over this...5 to 10 minute prayer...I swear I felt this heavy dark blanket lift off of me. When she started I was shaking and sobbing and by the end I was still and and light. And since then I believed in God. But I have so much trouble connecting with Him.
Only recently within the past year or so I started trying to read my bible and pray regularly...I talk to Him SO much like constantly but I don't FEEL the holy spirit. And I want so much to feel Him. I have ADHD and hyperthyroidism and possibly Grave's Disease and idk if my brain being different makes things worse for me with believing and staying on fire for Jesus. I want to reach that Jesus glow so badly...
God has honestly changed me so much already and I know that's true...I could really use some friends on here. I don't know the rules on this forum and I hope I didn't say anything inappropriate.
I'm 37 years old. Married and a Christian. I'm a new Christian. I'm an introvert too...My husband and I used to go to a local non denominational church which we liked at first as we liked the pastor. He was older and we felt like we were really learning something there...But then some younger youth pastors started taking over the sermons and they were hyper, disrespectful and made inappropriate jokes that made us feel no longer at home there. I never had a chance to get to know the women there we usually left right after service.
I have only one friend. She lives in Canada and she is not a believer. She is more paganistic with her believes and she gets annoyed sometimes when I try to talk about God so I don't anymore...
I really just want a community of women who I can talk to about Jesus and my struggles. I feel very alone in this friend wise...
I don't have much of a testimony but....I was church hurt when I was younger. A pastor had stolen a goosebumps book I was reading after church hours when my grandmother was attending a sewing group and I was in the play ground...I never got it back. I was 13...Also a bunch of girls would make fun of me for wearing black (I was a little goth back then) and said they wouldn't be my friend until I got baptized so...I did...I wanted friends. I did it for them...Not for God...I didn't think much about God at that time...They still shunned me and I got very angry and left the church for...34 years...I had horrible anxiety all the time. And would see awful images of things happening to my animals in my mind...Or loved ones...It gave me so much insomnia and just awful feelings...So I told this to my very religious grandmother who asked if she could pray over me and I said OK...And she did...And over this...5 to 10 minute prayer...I swear I felt this heavy dark blanket lift off of me. When she started I was shaking and sobbing and by the end I was still and and light. And since then I believed in God. But I have so much trouble connecting with Him.
Only recently within the past year or so I started trying to read my bible and pray regularly...I talk to Him SO much like constantly but I don't FEEL the holy spirit. And I want so much to feel Him. I have ADHD and hyperthyroidism and possibly Grave's Disease and idk if my brain being different makes things worse for me with believing and staying on fire for Jesus. I want to reach that Jesus glow so badly...
God has honestly changed me so much already and I know that's true...I could really use some friends on here. I don't know the rules on this forum and I hope I didn't say anything inappropriate.
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