I must, I must remember that I'm a steward not an owner. I pray the Lord delivers me but He has the say. I'm believing for mercy and not a chastising.
Things have been harder than I would ever say here. I see a lot of hardship all around. I know that God sets a hedge about the young so that they are hidden from many many things. We that are old soldiers He has given us the gift of being able to endure hardness as a good soldier of the Lord Jesus Christ.
If God gave Paul and Silas the strength to sing praises at midnight chained in a Roman cell then my present Small affliction He will surely see me through.
I stood by the gurney that held my 15 year old daughter killed needlessly and said the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away, blessed be the name of the Lord.
I stood by the hospital bed of my mother who was afflicted with Lupus when she was twenty five yet struggled to care for her babies. She never regained consciousness.
I buried my father on a Christmas eve after he'd spent 25 years in the VA hospital. Paralyzed, speechless, afflicted over those years with illnesses, infections, a broken leg from being mishandled by uncaring caregivers. It was weeks before his broken leg was discovered.
I spent a year of my life recovering from a horribly broken leg from a horse rolling over me.
My brothers are both disabled veterans.
My sister suffers a rare form of arthritis and has had steel pins placed in her fingers and toes. A woman of faith who buried her own down syndrome daughter at 25.
I stood in the room at children's hospital when my brother told the doctor to turn off all life support systems for my 30 year old nephew who regarded me as a father to him, watching as the graphs went straight line.
Leelus Schultz, a man I worked with, had to kill his own son when he the young man, high on drugs was trying to kill Leelus. Thank God for the things I did not have to endure.
Jesus Christ is yet Lord. Who shall separate me from the love of Christ?
Jesus grew weary in His journey so I know it's no sin for me to grow weary.