Respite

[Ziggy]

Yesterday I sent dad over to a rehab for a 5 day stay so I could relax a bit and catch up on some rest.
The last 2 weeks been a little hard. I'm winding down myself.
Took a little bit to explain to him it's just a visit, not admittance.
I'm more stressed now then before he went over.
And it's only been 1 day. 4 more to go.
First time in 2 years he's been out of might sight.
feeling a little guilty because of this weakness that is washing over me.
I pray it passes soon. Hopefully before dad comes home.
Not sure what is hitting me, but it started at the back of my neck. figured inflammation. since covid in 2021 I been getting random attacks of swelling in different places at random times. Now I just feel like I'm drunk all the time and I can't clear my head.
Thank you for listening.
Hugs

 

[Lambano]

Praying for you, Ziggy. Care-giver burn-out is a real thing.

 

[Debp]

Praying you feel better soon.

 

[amigo de christo]

It is inflamation all right and stress can make it worse .
Put all focus on prayer and scripture reading again .
And do avoid most news etc .
They seem to be stirring up anger and resentment . I quit watching it years ago
Let us focus on the gospel , spreading the truth of the one true gospel of JESUS .
And if you have not yet done so , strip your diet of all processed foods .
Also eat blue berries and watch how that brain clears up too .
Stay in prayer . Its not suprise these things are upticking
due to all the chaos they preach in media . Time for this , He has perfect peace
Whose MIND is st ayed upon THE LORD .

 

[Ziggy]

I had to fight to bring him home after he had his stroke.
They said I couldn't do it by myself.
I'm still proving them wrong.
I think I just got like Lambano said, burn-out.
It's been 2 years, and he is 91. About the only thing he can do is still feed himself.
As long as he can do that, I won't take that from him.
His hearing is gone which makes it hard to communicate. Just grab a magic marker and a napkin write everything down. His eyes still works.
He has that advantage over me. Mine been getting darker and hazy this last year.
Can't see anything without readers.
So Hospice provides 5 days at a Rehab or some facility to take care of him while I get myself stronger.
Not sure if that's going to happen, but God has gotten me this far.
It's been an interesting journey. But I'm not ready to quit.
At least he has air conditioning where he is, lol
it was warm yesterday and supposed to be over the weekend.
I have a portable AC but it's only good for a small room. It's good enough for me.
But it wouldn't cover the whole area. So he's comfortable and that helps knowing that he isn't laying here dehydrating and melting in this heat.
Can't seem to get the fuzzies out of my head still though. I just pray whatever this is it's not permanent.
I have a hard time controlling my emotions and usually I'm pretty good with that. I actually think before I speak.
And the thinking is getting fuzzy. Sleep deprivation is a real thing. I don't think I've slept an unbroken night for a long time.
Trying to take advantage of the time now, and here I am writing.
lol
I still would rather be nowhere else and I would still do everything over the same.
I have no regrets. just stress.

And the world isn't making it any easier LOL

God Bless You
Hugs

 

[Debp]

Can't seem to get the fuzzies out of my head still though.

Make sure you are drinking enough water... could be dehydration?

I'm signing off for now, talk later.

 

[amigo de christo]

Make sure you are drinking enough water... could be dehydration?

I'm signing off for now, talk later.

To the trenches one and all . And oh yeah its time for many to drink of the pure and holy cisterns
of the Water of life of THE LORD .
regulators and contenders for the true faith ................SADDLE UP and MOUNT UP .