- Jul 27, 2008
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Hi again, everybody. I have (at least) one other big question to ask you all, in some hope of getting a good answer for it.Why doesn't God show Himself in some way to us, so that it would be clear to us that He exists? This is a question that I see a lot of atheists ask, and it's a good question, in my opinion. The traditional answer I've heard is basically that if He appeared to us, we wouldn't need faith, and we would have no choice but to worship Him - essentially negating our free will. But I have two problems with that answer.First, Adam and Eve were in the Garden of Eden before sin, and the Bible says that God walked with Adam - actually, now that I try to find the reference, I can't seem to find it, but at the very least, God spoke audibly to Adam and Eve, and Gen. 3:8 says that "they heard the sound" of God walking in the garden. So in any case, it seems that Adam and Eve had clear, undeniable proof of God's existence. And yet, they still managed to disobey God, rebel against Him, sin against Him - whatever you want to call it. Their knowledge of His existence in no way denied their free will. Along the same lines, Lucifer was an angel in God's presence. He certainly knew that God existed. And yet he still managed to rebel, get thrown out of Heaven, and continually try to thwart all of God's plans. In other words, even with proof of God's existence, we still are able to disobey God and sin.Second, at least the large majority of Christian denominations claim that at some point in the future, Jesus is going to return and all Christians are going to get to go to Heaven. Here we will be in the presence of God to worship Him forever. But wait - if God wants us to choose to worship Him, and that requires that we don't have proof of His existence, then what happens in Heaven? Do we still have the choice to worship Him or not, even once we've seen Him "face to face"? If you say that sure we have the choice, but no one would ever choose not to worship Him, then I can just point you right back to Lucifer...So here is my question: As I began to have doubts of God's existence, I prayed to Him - begged and pleaded with Him, really - to reveal Himself to me in some way. I just needed one way to know whether He existed or not - even if it wasn't entirely clear, maybe even leaving some room for ambiguity - and as soon as I had that, I was ready to commit my life back to Him again. But nothing ever happened. No sign ever came. I wasn't looking for anything incredibly miraculous - but certainly God can cause a bunny to come around outside my window, right? Does God not love me enough to show Himself to me in some way? I'm not one of those people that would never convert, despite any evidence shown to me. I'm just one of those people that is starting to think that sometimes we see what we want to see, even if it's not really there. Because as soon as I started having doubts, it was suddenly like all the evidence I had for God's existence suddenly didn't "work" anymore. It was like praying to a brick wall...At any rate, sorry for the long, rambling post. I just am looking for answers, and I can't seem to find them inside my own noggin. I desperately want to believe, but I cannot believe in something without at least a semi-logical explanation behind it. I'm just trying to find that explanation....Thanks in advance for your comments, everyone.