So yeah, I assume this is the best place to post this, but I would ask a moderator move it if I'm in the wrong place. The knowledge within the bible has always been a scary thing for me ever since I've learned of this sin. If you can believe it, I actually dread reading the bible, I have an unimaginable scale of fear and despair of reading the word of god. Let me start from the beginning, about two years ago I stumbled onto a website that I found extremely informative, it was basically a website that was an "FAQ" for Christians, a place where certain questions were posed (What did god mean by XX) and an entire article with very insightful and simple explanations. Well, I came across an article that had the same name of this thread, "The unforgivable sin", now growing up in the belief that god forgives everyones trespasses when they seek the lord, I found the articles name to be of extreme interest. I began reading it and found that the ultimate or unforgivable sin would be to claim the lord did his acts through the work of satan, that the holy spirit's work was made manifest by the devil. As a Christian, I cannot and still do not accept that such a horrific thing is possible, however I was met with a dilemma. I have the unfortunate disadvantage of being an obsessive compulsive, when I get something stuck in my head, I have a tendency to repeat it on my surface thoughts. Well, you can probably guess where this is going.. Yes, I said this, I've said it many times and each time I say it, I'm filled with remorse and dread. Even as I write this, I'm saying it, and I can literally feel my heart beat speed up. I've also read that if one feels guilty or if one is worried of being in violation of this sin, that they shouldn't be worried, as chances are you didn't commit it. But I can't shake the feeling, I can't conquer my dread. I live each day as if my fate is uncertain and some days as if my fate is sealed. I mourn my own loss as if judgment has already been passed. And when I research this sin, and I find that you had to have done XXX in order to have committed this sin, I find that my mind will immediately try and follow through with that sin. Think of it like someone telling you not to think about the color purple, what are you going to do first? Your going to think about purple, well it's much more advanced in an obsessive compulsive. My mind will quickly start thinking about purple, and it will continue to do so, even after trying your very best to suppress it. I come here for advice, this has been a huge weight on my shoulders, a burden of unimaginable proportions. To put yourself in my shoes, imagine yourself as one of this earths most spiritually developed Christians and then being told by god himself that your fate rests in hell, doesn't sound to refreshing, does it? What do you think I should do? Am I just overreacting? Have I committed this sin? Is my guilt enough evidence to prove my innocence of being in violation? It's such a confusing crime, and while many things in the bible are taken literally, some things are not. How does one act on this passage?
MARK 3:29, "Whoever blasphemes against The Holy Spirit will never have forgiveness, but is guilty of everlasting sin."
MARK 3:29, "Whoever blasphemes against The Holy Spirit will never have forgiveness, but is guilty of everlasting sin."