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[poeticfighter]

Hello to all This may be a bad first post but i need to hear some christ centered opinions on this. Everything in my life that i considered dear to me has been taken away in some way or form. I had a nervous breakdown yesterday that saw me do things i told myself i would never do. I had a serious problem with Pornography and i never saw how bad it was until i got the net back. I could not stop myself, i was angry with everyone and sad at the same time. My school project took the hit and in the end i decided to stop school for a while until my focus is back. I watched my family turn from prayer warriors to worldly servants. I watched myself turn into something i never wanted and through it all i had some faith left in me to say that if i prayed that God will do something to make it better. I seem now to have lost faith. I am tired of prayer and reading the bible is a confusing thing, i can't seem to use the Sword of Faith in any wayI wanted to talk to someone at my church but those who i trust i don't feel to talk to. I just have the feeling to be alone because i might do something that i might regret around them. I don't have the connection i had with God and when now i look at life and wonder if my life was lived for God or myself. I wonder if i lived my years, avoiding alot of things because they were not of God. I now have a little regret that i did not do the things i had to opportunity to do. I feel lonely because i want to have my first girlfriend ( i stayed away from the whole relationship thing because i wanted my wife to be the first person i have that kinda of freedom of expression with.), i feel confused because i wonder if christianity is for me because i am just not strong enough to pull this off when the enemy attacks i always seem to fall but this time i turned back on my word. I prayed to God one night a couple of nights back and said i would never watch Porn again and that i would never do this and that and now i am doing so much worse.people join the body of christ for many reasons I joined to be happy and truly happy and i have seen that no woman, job, game or tangible item could do anything for me. I want to be helped yet i don't want help .

 

[tim_from_pa]

(poeticfighter;19162)
Hello to all This may be a bad first post but i need to hear some christ centered opinions on this. Everything in my life that i considered dear to me has been taken away in some way or form. I had a nervous breakdown yesterday that saw me do things i told myself i would never do. I had a serious problem with Pornography and i never saw how bad it was until i got the net back. I could not stop myself, i was angry with everyone and sad at the same time. My school project took the hit and in the end i decided to stop school for a while until my focus is back. I watched my family turn from prayer warriors to worldly servants. I watched myself turn into something i never wanted and through it all i had some faith left in me to say that if i prayed that God will do something to make it better. I seem now to have lost faith. I am tired of prayer and reading the bible is a confusing thing, i can't seem to use the Sword of Faith in any wayI wanted to talk to someone at my church but those who i trust i don't feel to talk to. I just have the feeling to be alone because i might do something that i might regret around them. I don't have the connection i had with God and when now i look at life and wonder if my life was lived for God or myself. I wonder if i lived my years, avoiding alot of things because they were not of God. I now have a little regret that i did not do the things i had to opportunity to do. I feel lonely because i want to have my first girlfriend ( i stayed away from the whole relationship thing because i wanted my wife to be the first person i have that kinda of freedom of expression with.), i feel confused because i wonder if christianity is for me because i am just not strong enough to pull this off when the enemy attacks i always seem to fall but this time i turned back on my word. I prayed to God one night a couple of nights back and said i would never watch Porn again and that i would never do this and that and now i am doing so much worse.people join the body of christ for many reasons I joined to be happy and truly happy and i have seen that no woman, job, game or tangible item could do anything for me. I want to be helped yet i don't want help .
This is a lot to digest. Just what exactly would you like an opinion on? Or I should say, a biblical answer.

 

[Christina]

The porn thing is something we can not fix for you. Only God and can you have to ask I suspect it is like the bible you want it to be easy to stop. Well its going to take effort on your part. Every time you want to go to a porn sight come here or go read your bible,take a walk and see the majastey of what God created, take it one day at a time. We will answer any bible question you have. You can read our threads. Ask everyday for God to give you strength to resist he will but you must accept it.Its no different than any other addiction if you don't get control of it.It controls you. Has it brought you any happiness??? Do you believe your a child of God and he wants you to be happy? If so he sent you a letter in the form of a Book telling you how to be happy. And make your life better. Question is do you love him and yourself enough to put the effort into learning it?????? Choice is yours and we are at your fingertips to help. So what are you going to do. my thoughts are that you are like many who never really learned Gods wordwhether it was your choice or a lack of your church to properly teach I don't know but the Salvation and repentance message though good news will not sustain your faith.You need to learn the deeper things of God known as the meat of the word,Now I know you say the bible is to confusing, Its written in the way you teach a child so I tend to think it was more of you wanting someone to just explain it all without you having to put any effort into it. All good things require effort.

 

[poeticfighter]

I see what your trying to say and i need time to rethink my direction and purpose in life with christ. I am beginning to worry alot of people, not that i am letting that push me but it makes me uneasy when i can't be the person God wants me to be because of selfish things and battles i should have already won. Thanks though i just needed to read someone elses opinion on this, an outside perspective. I know it sounded like the rantings of a mad man and believe me i tried to get it out straight but when you have alot on your mind and confusion steps in unattended this is what you get. I like the forums by the way. The topics i have read have been insightful and inspiring enough to give good thoughts to a man in need. One more thing, keep me in prayer some how Even if it is just the moment you read this i really believe in the power of prayer and I myself will pray. I need a deeper relationship with God so i am going to give it my all for once. Let's see what happens

 

[Christina]

I will pray for you and more than when I just read this. Never forget God has given you power of evil spirits. When you feel him attacking you and pulling you toward him instead of God you have the power to order him to get behind you in the name of Jesus Christ.As I said we are here at your finger tips to help. God blessMatthew 16:23 "But He turned, and said unto Peter, "Get thee behind Me, Satan: thou art an offence unto Me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men."Peter has just said that he would not allow this to happen, for he is speaking out against God and His plan. Jesus said to Peter, after these words came out of Peter, "Get thee behind me, Satan". Man's emotions many times can cause them to go against what God's Word dictates. This is why Christianity is disciplined, and we must be disciples which is one who learns and then puts what he has learned towards discipline. Be a student of God's Word in the plan of God. When you are one of God's children, and your emotions go against what God's Word says , then these words of Christ would apply to you also, "Get behind me, Satan."

 

[Nova]

Your fleshly self will always battle against your spiritual one. It is a fact of life. The choice on which you yield to, is up to you. Since it is impossible to just stop having*certain urges or desires, you need to replace those thoughts with something else. Pull out you Bible & write down scriptures. Meditate on Romans 6, 7 & 8. Review your life. Do these feeling come in certain situations or at certain times of the day? Avoid those situations. Develop new habits that don't lead you toward temptation.

 

[MickinEngland]

(poeticfighter;19162)
Hello to all Everything in my life that i considered dear to me has been taken away in some way or form... I had a serious problem with Pornography and i never saw how bad it was until i got the net back....in the end i decided to stop school for a while until my focus is back....
Still at school? That explains it, you're in the twilight zone between being a kid and an adult, it's a tunnel we all have to go through, I hated it myself as much as you do, just ride it out as best you can..My low point was when I locked myself in the school toilet and cried my eyes out in despair at all the hassle I was getting from worldly parents, teachers and the world in general telling me what to do and think all the time.But when I got to around 17 and left school I decided nobody was ever going to tell me what to do ever again, and i've felt great ever since..

Remember, a Major Requirement of Christianity is that we REJECT the world -CHAIN GANG by MickRight from our childhood we have rules and regulations laid on us by parents, teachers and society telling us to be good little boys and girls and play by the worlds rules in order to get a nice job, nice car, nice house, nice kids etc.That's fine of course for those who want it, but what about those who don't?No problem, the Bible fully supports anyone who wants to reject the petty ways of the world -Jesus said:- "The world wants you to dance to its tune" (Matthew 11:16-17)"Jesus saved you from the empty way of life handed you by your forefathers" (1 Pet 1:18 )"Don't conform to the pattern of this world" (Rom 12:2)"Don't love the world or the things in it,otherwise the love of God is not in you" (1 John 2:15-17)"Set your mind on things above,not on things on the earth" (Col 3:2)"A friend of the world is the enemy of God" (James 4:4)"You were dead when you followed the ways of the world" (Eph 2:1-2)Jesus said:- "Whatever is valued by men is detestable to God" (Luke 16:15)"Come out from among them and be separate, says the Lord, I will be a Father to you, and you shall be my sons and daughters" (2 Cor 6:17-18 ) "People heap abuse on you for not joining their ways" (1 Peter 4:4)Jesus's cousin John was a scruffy young dropout living rough in the middle of nowhere eating wild food and dressed in near-rags, sometimes going in town to yell insults at the snooty priests and corrupt rulersJesus's verdict on him? -"John is the greatest man ever to be born" (Matthew 11:11)The rules that the world tries to put on people are like shackles that imprison us, which is why Jesus said "God has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners...to release the oppressed" (Luke 4:18 )In short, the world wants us to keep spending nights in the box, but Jesus says 'Bust out!"

WADDYA SAY JOHNNY? - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TzVzJ21fHeU---------------------------------------------------

 

[RobinD69]

OK maybe I can share from my own strongholds.I also have an addiction to porn,I have prayed to God to release me of this and other sins I tend to fall back into from time to time.God has shared with me a few verses that help alot"Pray without ceasing""My grace is sufficiant for thee".I still fall but"When I am weak,He is strong".Even when you are searching porn sites.pray that the Lord will intervene.You have already got God on your side,but you need to arm Him as well as yourself in your life.Coming to a Christian forum helps,but maybe you need to go to a forum that challenges you to search the Bible.I have gone to many websites that caused me to search the Bible because of their hatred for Biblical teaching.I have been kicked off of Islamic sites,homosexual sites,atheist sites and many others,but they helped me to dig deeper into the Bible and made my faith stronger and my walk clearer because I relied on Christ for all my truth even when I was weak I knew He was strong.

 

[MickinEngland]

(RobinD69;19693)
OK maybe I can share from my own strongholds.I also have an addiction to porn,I have prayed to God to release me of this and other sins I tend to fall back into from time to time..
Look on the bright side mate, at least if you like women's bodies it proves you're not gay, so give thanks to God for that..

As a normal hetero male it's only natural to be fascinated by the opp sex, and if you weren't you'd be un-natural and I'm sure you wouldn't want that..

I think most males are interested in porn, I know I was, but you tend to grow out of it as you get older as you begin to see it for what it really is - the exploitation of men and women to perform for the camera in shallow loveless meaningless sex, and like me you'll grow to hate the sight of it because it cheapens the God-given gift of beautiful true love between a man and woman..