Will God condemn me because I asked to be killed so much before?

[Luis]

Ever since I was a kid I had thoughts about taking my own life. But ever since I turned 19, those thoughts got increasingly more profound and I started telling God almost every day to kill me and give whatever time I had left in life to the ones closest to me.

God never fulfilled that for me. A few years later passed and now I don’t think that, that’s something I want to happen.

I’m not baptized but I do want to believe in him and I do try to be what he wants me to be. If in the future I dont want to die anymore at all, is it possible that he actually does do it?

 

[Scott Downey]

Ever since I was a kid I had thoughts about taking my own life. But ever since I turned 19, those thoughts got increasingly more profound and I started telling God almost every day to kill me and give whatever time I had left in life to the ones closest to me.

God never fulfilled that for me. A few years later passed and now I don’t think that, that’s something I want to happen.

I’m not baptized but I do want to believe in him and I do try to be what he wants me to be. If in the future I dont want to die anymore at all, is it possible that he actually does do it?

There is no condemnation from God for people who believe God sent His Son to save them from their sins and trespasses against God.
God knows we all have sinned and are worthy of His judgement and wrath.
Jesus saves us from the wrath of God to come, because when you believe what God has said through the testimony of His Son who God sent, then God credits you with righteousness, as in you are in good standing with God the Father of spirits, and he does not recall your sins or transgressions against Him, all things become new in your relationship. He remembers them no more.

John 3
14 And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up, 15 that whoever believes in Him should [c]not perish but have eternal life. 16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. 17 For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.

18 “He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. 19 And this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. 20 For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. 21 But he who does the truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God.”

 

[Luis]

There is no condemnation from God for people who believe God sent His Son to save them from their sins and trespasses against God.
God knows we all have sinned and are worthy of His judgement and wrath.
Jesus saves us from the wrath of God to come, because when you believe what God has said through the testimony of His Son who God sent, then God credits you with righteousness, as in you are in good standing with God the Father of spirits, and he does not recall your sins or transgressions against Him, all things become new in your relationship. He remembers them no more.

John 3
14 And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up, 15 that whoever believes in Him should [c]not perish but have eternal life. 16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. 17 For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.

18 “He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. 19 And this is the condemnation, that the light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. 20 For everyone practicing evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. 21 But he who does the truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be clearly seen, that they have been done in God.”

Thank you, I appreciate it.