Understanding MPD/DID & SRA/MK

[TLHKAJ]

I was determinded not to write here anymore. It's like something in me wanting to say I do not have did but I do and inside is bad today, however i'm unable to express in words the pain I feel

Praying for you. It might help to journal and find out why inside is having trouble today. Idk if it would help, but sometimes journaling can help get around a barrier of no words.

 

[truthquest]

I'm going to do my best to try to explain the struggle that I have endured for over sixty years to hopefully help people to better understand what happens to survivors and what they have to deal with on a daily basis. That's a long time to have been subjected to heavy mind control, kidnappings, torture, trauma, SRA, threats to self and family, and unimaginable horrors worse than any horror movie.

I was 38 when I first started having flashbacks and nightmares. Up to that time I had no conscious recollection of anything having to do with these flashbacks and nightmares. I preferred to believe that it wasn't true but it was. I turned to elders of the church I was going to for help and was told that I was demonized and that it was my fault. They didn't even offer to pray for me but instead only condemned me. Soon it got around to other church members who avoided me and wanted nothing to do with me. So I stopped going to that church. The truth is that the elders didn't know how to handle it. They were not equipped to deal with it. They had no clue about Satanists/Luciferians, SRA and the people responsible for what had happened to me since I was a child and was continuing to happen.

In my case, those original memories and nightmares were only the first layer, the cover layer, screen memories, the truth was hidden deep in my subconscious. I was programmed to remember all of it as alien/UFO connected which it most assuredly was not. I want people to understand that.

The condemnation continued. I was told not only that I was demonized but also that I didn't have enough faith and that was why this was happening to me, I was told that I had mental illness, I was told that I was lying, that I wanted attention. Who would want that kind of attention? I was told also recently that I was repeating QAnon conspiracy theories. That hurt me deeply. This isn't about politics. I felt that there was no one human to turn to for help, no one who would understand. I would pray about it. I would ask God why. Even as an innocent small child, I would ask God why He would allow such evil people to do what they did to me when I was a helpless, defenseless child. For a time I was angry with God. Then I would ask for forgiveness. I would ask for protection.

Then over a period of years, I began to slowly remember the deeper layers of my subconscious and how the alien/UFO cover hid the real truth. It wasn't aliens who kidnapped me. It was Satanists/Luciferians. I began to remember the heavy mind control and the methods that were used. I remembered SRA rituals. I remembered the horror of things I had witnessed. The things that I was forced to do against my will. I remembered the threats against me and my family if I ever talked about their secrets. They are really big on secrets. They don't want people to know the truth about them. They have already carried through with one of their threats against me. Because I haven't kept silent and have talked about what happened to me. The things I know about them.

Christians need to know that this is real. It is spiritual warfare. They need to know that many churches have been infiltrated with Satanists/Luciferians. They take over churches positions of power including replacing the preacher, pastor etc. They perform rituals in churches that invite demons into the churches. They teach and train people in churches to carry out their goals. They desecrate churches. They especially go after children and babies. They want to pervert anything that is holy, good, innocent, the things that God intended to be. They do these things in churches at secret times, days and nights, that the rest of the people in the churches are not aware of. Christians are not safe in those kind of churches. Christians tend to believe that they are safe in a church but they need to be on guard at all times even in a church and not let their guard down.

I have become aware that Satanists/Luciferians are secretly placed at every level of society. I have encountered them at those levels. In churches, hospitals, foster care system, in schools I attended while growing up, government at all levels, and many other places.

I need to thank some people who helped me in recent years in private groups including TLHKAJ.

 

[TLHKAJ]

I need to thank some people who helped me in recent years in private groups including TLHKAJ.

You are such a blessing to me. I have been blessed to see where you are .....amazing! Thank You, Jesus, for Your work in @truthquest!!

 

[TLHKAJ]

@truthquest That is a beautiful song. Thank you for sharing it. I'm listening to it now, as I wait for my chiropractor appointment. I'm so glad you're here. I have more to share in reply to your post later.

 

[Shattered]

The only reason I persist on this forum is the Lord. Were it not for His will, I would have left some time ago. I don't see a point behind posting a single word because I'm in the company of strangers. Hollow platitudes abound, the same sugar-coated venom injected into me by the false over and over again.

I'd rather face armed degenerates and their bullets once more than the insolence of the false. The former are straightforward with their evil while the latter are deceivers of the flesh. They evidence a form of godliness but are bereft of His Spirit; they exalt themselves as my teacher but have nothing to show me. What does the pew-dweller have to demonstrate? How they long to be in the presence of the Lord? Childish prayers recited like mantras? Eye that see but are blind, and ears that hear but are deaf?

Have they ever laid down their lives for a stranger? Have they faced death without hesitation or fear? Have they lived hand to foot, never knowing where the next meal comes from? They suffer a little and wail loudly... that's what the false have to offer. No one understands nor do they have ears to hear. I speak to the Lord and ask Him to grant me leave, so I might flee this loathsome world and the pew-dwellers who vex my soul. I don't know them, and they don't know me.

 

[TLHKAJ]

@Shattered I'm sorry you've been hurt by those who profess Christ. I can relate, and I know most (if not all) survivors have been wounded similarly by people who profess to serve Christ. (See @truthquest's post above.)

I know you're in a fierce storm for some time now. I am here, still caring and still praying.

 

[Wynona]

Recently, I watched the testimony of an Ex-Satanist and realized I wanted to have a deeper walk with God that could stand up to dark forces in our world and engage in spiritual warfare.

Ill admit, a big part of me didn't want to know about about SRA and the trauma people go through. But I am thankful for this thread and and hope to stand in the gap against this evil.

I don't pretend to have a full understanding but Im willing to learn.

 

[truthquest]

You are such a blessing to me. I have been blessed to see where you are .....amazing! Thank You, Jesus, for Your work in @truthquest!!

You are a blessing to me. So are others who have helped me. You and others were there for me years ago when I poured out all the hurt and pain and you all listened to me, understood me, encouraged me, and prayed for me. Yes, I am sure that he who began a good work in me will bring it to completion.

 

[truthquest]

 

[truthquest]

 

[truthquest]

@truthquest That is a beautiful song. Thank you for sharing it. I'm listening to it now, as I wait for my chiropractor appointment. I'm so glad you're here. I have more to share in reply to your post later.

That song is one of my favorites.

 

[TLHKAJ]

Yes, I am sure that he who began a good work in me will bring it to completion.

Yes, He will!

 

[truthquest]

The only reason I persist on this forum is the Lord. Were it not for His will, I would have left some time ago. I don't see a point behind posting a single word because I'm in the company of strangers. Hollow platitudes abound, the same sugar-coated venom injected into me by the false over and over again.

You're also in the company of some who do understand you. So keep talking so that those who don't will. Because they need to know and understand.

I'd rather face armed degenerates and their bullets once more than the insolence of the false. The former are straightforward with their evil while the latter are deceivers of the flesh. They evidence a form of godliness but are bereft of His Spirit; they exalt themselves as my teacher but have nothing to show me. What does the pew-dweller have to demonstrate? How they long to be in the presence of the Lord? Childish prayers recited like mantras? Eye that see but are blind, and ears that hear but are deaf?

Most churches don't teach people about these things. They avoid it. They are not equipped to handle it. They don't know what real spiritual warfare is even when these evil people infiltrate their churches and take over.

Have they ever laid down their lives for a stranger? Have they faced death without hesitation or fear? Have they lived hand to foot, never knowing where the next meal comes from? They suffer a little and wail loudly... that's what the false have to offer. No one understands nor do they have ears to hear. I speak to the Lord and ask Him to grant me leave, so I might flee this loathsome world and the pew-dwellers who vex my soul. I don't know them, and they don't know me.

There are those of us who have laid down our lives for others. We understand. I can still remember what that evil demon posing as a preacher said to me when I laid down my life to save a child and a baby. He said, "Are you going to try to stop me? You better do it now but you won't make it out of here alive." He said that in a Christian church during a ritual. They attacked me and mangled my arm. But I'm still alive. And I would do it again.

 

[Jostler]

I've been a bit quiet for awhile, for reasons we'll probably discuss later when its more appropriate. But, I did want to welcome Joy and Wynona. Welcome both of you, with all my heart. For the moment, THLAKJ is currently sitting under a tornado warning, with the track apparently headed straight toward her house. I'm not really afraid for her, but, prayer for her sake would be welcome.

 

[lilygrace]

@truthquest i understand how you feel......... especially about the qanon assumptions. back in maybe october someone was randomly complaining to me aout how she doesnt want trump gone cos of the child trafficking in hollywood and dems. well.... i told her maybe she should consider asking to talk to me about that stuff cos it might trigger.... she accused me of making stuff up. um...so.... basically i was aware of SRA since 2007.... i had joined survivor sites and met survivors. a couple of sra survivors befriended me and i dont know why...
thank you @TLHKAJ for beginnig this thread.
i appreciate you wishin gus to be protected.
i appreciate people here to want to sincerly learn and not harm


that being said i can relate to and kind of unsure of if this is my history still or to what extent.

 

[lilygrace]

I've been a bit quiet for awhile, for reasons we'll probably discuss later when its more appropriate. But, I did want to welcome Joy and Wynona. Welcome both of you, with all my heart. For the moment, THLAKJ is currently sitting under a tornado warning, with the track apparently headed straight toward her house. I'm not really afraid for her, but, prayer for her sake would be welcome.

Lord . please protect @TLHKAJ . you have protected her so far very much so. to be honest it does scare me . comfort her. in Jesus name amen

 

[truthquest]

@truthquest i understand how you feel......... especially about the qanon assumptions. back in maybe october someone was randomly complaining to me aout how she doesnt want trump gone cos of the child trafficking in hollywood and dems. well.... i told her maybe she should consider asking to talk to me about that stuff cos it might trigger.... she accused me of making stuff up. um...so.... basically i was aware of SRA since 2007.... i had joined survivor sites and met survivors. a couple of sra survivors befriended me and i dont know why...
thank you @TLHKAJ for beginnig this thread.
i appreciate you wishin gus to be protected.
i appreciate people here to want to sincerly learn and not harm


that being said i can relate to and kind of unsure of if this is my history still or to what extent.

SRA has been happening in my family for well over sixty years even before I was born and long before QAnon was even heard of. QAnon is political. I've been accused of a lot of things but people who know me personally know without a doubt that I am not political and I do not involve myself in political matters.

 

[lilygrace]

SRA has been happening in my family for well over sixty years even before I was born and long before QAnon was even heard of. QAnon is political. I've been accused of a lot of things but people who know me personally know without a doubt that I am not political and I do not involve myself in political matters.

yes. it kind of bothers me to be honest that they are now using SRA and acting like they care...but maybe thats too tense or triggering...and ill stop talking about that if you want....
<3
but yeah befor ei even considered it being in my family history i was aware of a little of it....

 

[Jostler]

I'm listening to the NOAA feed and its difficult to really pinpoint where the bad weather really is, but there appear to be two tornado warnings in effect near her. Severe thunderstorms with damaging straight winds and 1 1/2 inch hail already reported, plus flash flooding warnings. One cell is north of her moving south....biggest threat obviously. The second cell appears to be to her south and moving away from her.

 

[Jostler]

Lord, please stand guard over the life, family and property of our precious sister. Let the shadow of Your wings hide her deep inside Your secret place....amen