I'm going to do my best to try to explain the struggle that I have endured for over sixty years to hopefully help people to better understand what happens to survivors and what they have to deal with on a daily basis. That's a long time to have been subjected to heavy mind control, kidnappings, torture, trauma, SRA, threats to self and family, and unimaginable horrors worse than any horror movie.
I was 38 when I first started having flashbacks and nightmares. Up to that time I had no conscious recollection of anything having to do with these flashbacks and nightmares. I preferred to believe that it wasn't true but it was. I turned to elders of the church I was going to for help and was told that I was demonized and that it was my fault. They didn't even offer to pray for me but instead only condemned me. Soon it got around to other church members who avoided me and wanted nothing to do with me. So I stopped going to that church. The truth is that the elders didn't know how to handle it. They were not equipped to deal with it. They had no clue about Satanists/Luciferians, SRA and the people responsible for what had happened to me since I was a child and was continuing to happen.
In my case, those original memories and nightmares were only the first layer, the cover layer, screen memories, the truth was hidden deep in my subconscious. I was programmed to remember all of it as alien/UFO connected which it most assuredly was not. I want people to understand that.
The condemnation continued. I was told not only that I was demonized but also that I didn't have enough faith and that was why this was happening to me, I was told that I had mental illness, I was told that I was lying, that I wanted attention. Who would want that kind of attention? I was told also recently that I was repeating QAnon conspiracy theories. That hurt me deeply. This isn't about politics. I felt that there was no one human to turn to for help, no one who would understand. I would pray about it. I would ask God why. Even as an innocent small child, I would ask God why He would allow such evil people to do what they did to me when I was a helpless, defenseless child. For a time I was angry with God. Then I would ask for forgiveness. I would ask for protection.
Then over a period of years, I began to slowly remember the deeper layers of my subconscious and how the alien/UFO cover hid the real truth. It wasn't aliens who kidnapped me. It was Satanists/Luciferians. I began to remember the heavy mind control and the methods that were used. I remembered SRA rituals. I remembered the horror of things I had witnessed. The things that I was forced to do against my will. I remembered the threats against me and my family if I ever talked about their secrets. They are really big on secrets. They don't want people to know the truth about them. They have already carried through with one of their threats against me. Because I haven't kept silent and have talked about what happened to me. The things I know about them.
Christians need to know that this is real. It is spiritual warfare. They need to know that many churches have been infiltrated with Satanists/Luciferians. They take over churches positions of power including replacing the preacher, pastor etc. They perform rituals in churches that invite demons into the churches. They teach and train people in churches to carry out their goals. They desecrate churches. They especially go after children and babies. They want to pervert anything that is holy, good, innocent, the things that God intended to be. They do these things in churches at secret times, days and nights, that the rest of the people in the churches are not aware of. Christians are not safe in those kind of churches. Christians tend to believe that they are safe in a church but they need to be on guard at all times even in a church and not let their guard down.
I have become aware that Satanists/Luciferians are secretly placed at every level of society. I have encountered them at those levels. In churches, hospitals, foster care system, in schools I attended while growing up, government at all levels, and many other places.
I need to thank some people who helped me in recent years in private groups including
TLHKAJ.