Understanding MPD/DID & SRA/MK

[truthquest]

I've often said that those rituals are worse than any horror movie I've ever seen.
Not that I like horror movies but just saying.

I had to leave a Christian forum because somebody kept insisting that I was just repeating QAnon conspiracy theories. Why does everything have to be about politics? I could care less about politics.

Before I left that forum I said I've told nothing but the truth. I've tried to warn Christians here. My conscience is clear.

 

[TLHKAJ]

One of the stories was being in a pile of other children of light bodies alive. They seem unrealistic/horrifying/disturbing. This is a nightmare.

"Children of light" sounds like a label given in programming, like "star children."

What is it that seems unrealistic?

 

[Shattered]

Before I was school age, I dreamed of the evil ones. @TLHKAJ and others will know of them as hybrids, monstrous beings who defy all sanity and reason. They are abominations before the Lord and have no place in His creation.

I suffered from nightmares from the crib until I was 8 years old... only these weren't nightmares. In the beginning, the barriers of amnesia weren't as robust/reinforced and so memories of fragments surfaced as dreams and visions. I was 10 years old when a popular song on the radio lulled me to sleep (TLHKAJ and @Jostler have listened to it); I dreamed of the ritual of which I was the object. It haunted me over the years and returned in vivid detail once I merged with the alternate whom I called the Frightened Child. He has a name but it's not needful to share it here.

The Frightened Child witnessed it all.

 

[truthquest]

I'm fixing to go to the library and then the fair today with the family.

I partly feel like apologizing like I'm unsure what good can come from this.

If it is something that is really bothering you, I wouldn't force it because if it's starting to surface, it will gradually become more and more clear with more details. I've found that if I just let it come at its own pace then it will come. If I try to force it to come, it causes confusion and frustration and stress and anxiety. I just try to relax and try to communicate with alters and then wait for a response. Also pray about it.

 

[Shattered]

The hybrids weren't the most terrifying thing I witnessed in those dreams and visions. I've come to understand that spiritual sensitivity is one of the traits of my bloodline; all three of my siblings were/are sensitive like I am. Mediums and warlocks.

I saw a spiritual power of darkness, the ruler of a principality of wickedness in high places. This prince was the root of my affliction and suffering, and he swore an oath to take my life one way or the other. This dark man with eyes of fury --- that's what I called him during childhood --- hated me because our Father in heaven preserved me from his power, raising a hedge to spare my life from his grasp... and not just his, but also that of his minions and servants. I've faced death many times over the years.

The Lord is the reason why I survived to testify of these things today. I belong to my Lord Jesus Christ and live only for Him.

 

[TLHKAJ]

The haroes were adult children of light that floated. Like legs up a few inches off the ground. They all looked like me only colors of the rainbow. The children of light were humans all different with crystals around their necks. Kids. The haroes had to fill them with energy or it was painful for them. These all had the diamonds without energy in them dead and this girl had like a drop in it.

And of course Magic purple curly hair and purple cape. Just very fantasy like. Disturbing, but I do not have recollection where I remember something that horrifying. Or real remembered it like y'all describe.

Internal worlds are created by programmers using trauma+a child's imagination. Alters can appear (inside) to look human or as fairies, angels, a ragdoll, a tree, mirrors, doors, gates, walls, animals, computers or components of computers, etc ....whatever is needed for the programmer to get what they desire. They are all parts of our humanity, but imagination plays a role in what they appear as inside. The internal world they live in can be as vast as a universe, and yet contain castles and planets, etc. The constructs are based on imagination. The alters and their memories are real/true. I hope that made sense.

 

[truthquest]

The haroes were adult children of light that floated. Like legs up a few inches off the ground. They all looked like me only colors of the rainbow. The children of light were humans all different with crystals around their necks. Kids. The haroes had to fill them with energy or it was painful for them. These all had the diamonds without energy in them dead and this girl had like a drop in it.

And of course Magic purple curly hair and purple cape. Just very fantasy like. Disturbing, but I do not have recollection where I remember something that horrifying. Or real remembered it like y'all describe.

Who are these heroes? I don't think I recall hearing about anything called heroes before in the way that you describe them.

 

[TLHKAJ]

One story was my heart was ripped out and stone was placed inside like maybe four to six years old. It could be used to hurt me in different ways. I do not see how this can have any reality to that.

This is a very common thing done in programming to make the child/alter believe they have had their heart of flesh replaced with a stony heart. I had an alter who believed she had a stone for a heart. Jesus came and touched her heart and she saw the truth, that she had a real flesh heart.

 

[amigo de christo]

Is there a ritual half moon to full moon. Like blood line moving outside of circle? I'm not sure if it is real or not. Just eyes closed. Not sure what was going on. Eyes open. Maybe blood line moved. Board being hosed off and put back on the window. It is really strange. It could be completely false. I had so much junk in my head as a child. Strange imaginations. I was so relieved when I became saved and was delivered from that.

Pray and ponder on this . Why would the delivered return to bondage . Why look backwards .
Flee the past and Ponder on the HOPE in Christ that lies before the lambs .
You know what the problem with all these self help books and physcologists and sadly even most churches is .
They focus on the WHY folks do or why they are as they are . Always the blame is not laid upon the person , but rather
upon the experience . But as for me , I KNOW I WAS A FILTHY THING . Owed naught but death and destruction .
Let me give an example of what i speak about .
TODAY when older johnny comes into a classroom , and acts out or complains He is not happy or something is wrong .
Always the world says , It came from childhood or an experience . Always laying the blame for our behavoir upon what happened to us .
When in truth , SOME OF US has serious issues , just like others . YET JESUS SET US FREE . WE KNOW the cause of our problems
or our holding onto them , ought to be all in the past . WHY worry over it at all . THE JOY OF THELORD sets a man or woman
or child free . WHY look back , why try and figure out anything . JUST ponder on the LORD . HOPE IN HIM .

 

[TLHKAJ]

Pray and ponder on this . Why would the delivered return to bondage . Why look backwards .
Flee the past and Ponder on the HOPE in Christ that lies before the lambs .
You know what the problem with all these self help books and physcologists and sadly even most churches is .
They focus on the WHY folks do or why they are as they are . Always the blame is not laid upon the person , but rather
upon the experience . But as for me , I KNOW I WAS A FILTHY THING . Owed naught but death and destruction .
Let me give an example of what i speak about .
TODAY when older johnny comes into a classroom , and acts out or complains He is not happy or something is wrong .
Always the world says , It came from childhood or an experience . Always laying the blame for our behavoir upon what happened to us .
When in truth , SOME OF US has serious issues , just like others . YET JESUS SET US FREE . WE KNOW the cause of our problems
or our holding onto them , ought to be all in the past . WHY worry over it at all . THE JOY OF THELORD sets a man or woman
or child free . WHY look back , why try and figure out anything . JUST ponder on the LORD . HOPE IN HIM .

You have no clue what you're talking about. If you've never walked through healing of horrific trauma, nor sought the Lord for understanding, then you have no right to come here and accuse anyone of "returning to bondage." This journey is the exact opposite ....it is submitting our brokenness to Jesus Christ so that HE can set us free of any bondages. Unless you can speak with wisdom and understanding of what we have faced, your comments are not welcome.

 

[TLHKAJ]

@amigo de christo
God is the one who led me back into my past for the purpose of bringing healing and deliverance. I knew the Lord since I was 13, and was in all sorts of pain and bondages and didn't know why until I was age 30 and He led me to my past to show me the roots!! If you have a problem with that, then go to Him! But don't come here with your religious spewing and unlearned statements, trying to shame those who are walking this path to freedom at HIS leading. He does this because until we face THE TRUTH, we will remain in bondage. It is only knowing the truth that makes us free.

I know Amigo can't and won't (doesn't want to) understand this. Scripture instructs parents to raise up a child in the way he should go....why?? ...because when he is old, he will not depart from it. That is scriptural truth which Amigo doesn't believe apparently. And the cult definitely knows this principle. That's why they do the exact opposite by training up a child in evil/trauma.

And when there is trauma in childhood, there is brokenness. A child's heart will grasp for answers and trauma at the hands of adults who should love and care for them doesn't make sense. So their minds will readily accept lies such as, "I must be evil. I deserved it. I'm bad. I'm sick..." These lies WILL effect us into adulthood if we don't bring the pain and trauma to Him and allow Him to uproot the lies and show us His truth. This is mind renewal. The path of healing trauma IS mind renewal.

Now, add to that, dissociation ....where the mind is literally shattered, and those shattered pieces are each holding onto lies they were taught. It is a work of God to liberate our captivity (alters) and bring them the truth. THIS IS FREEDOM!!

Don't listen to people who try to discourage you from staying in God's hands using twisted versions of their own truth. You will know the truth and the truth will make you FREE!!!

 

[Shattered]

There are the well-meaning but misguided, and then there are the stiff-necked and willfully ignorant, deniers of the Lord's power as revealed in His purpose and will. Pay them no mind.

 

[TLHKAJ]

There are the well-meaning but misguided, and then there are the stiff-necked and willfully ignorant, deniers of the Lord's power as revealed in His purpose and will. Pay them no mind.

Agreed, brother. The reason I do address it is because there are a couple of very vulnerable survivors here who are prone to feel shame and guilt because their abusers used religious dogma to reinforce denial. (I know you completely get what I'm saying.) I feel fiercely protective of survivors and can't stand the religious crowd....so reminiscent of the cult front churches.

 

[Shattered]

Agreed, brother. The reason I do address it is because there are a couple of very vulnerable survivors here who are prone to feel shame and guilt because their abusers used religious dogma to reinforce denial. (I know you completely get what I'm saying.) I feel fiercely protective of survivors and can't stand the religious crowd....so reminiscent of the cult front churches.

I do indeed. There was a time when I burned with anger on account of those who make a public spectacle of their form of godliness, having suffered much evil by their hand. The scripture speaks to them, that evil generation seeking a sign, always fearful and suspicious, ranting about this and that while groping blindly in the dark.

There is a kind of person who curses his father
And does not bless his mother.
There is a kind who is pure in his own eyes,
Yet is not washed from his filthiness.
There is a kind—oh how lofty are his eyes!
And his eyelids are raised in arrogance.
There is a kind of person whose teeth are like swords
And his jaw teeth like knives,
To devour the poor from the earth
And the needy from among mankind.
(Proverbs 30:11-14)

Woe to the unrighteous judge, the blind guide who believes he sees when he does not. The Lord has sent a strong delusion to these because they never loved the truth. Witness how they profess Christ with their lips but their conduct betrays them: we may know a tree by its fruit. A good tree doesn't yield toxic fruit.

 

[truthquest]

Pray and ponder on this . Why would the delivered return to bondage . Why look backwards .
Flee the past and Ponder on the HOPE in Christ that lies before the lambs .
You know what the problem with all these self help books and physcologists and sadly even most churches is .
They focus on the WHY folks do or why they are as they are . Always the blame is not laid upon the person , but rather
upon the experience . But as for me , I KNOW I WAS A FILTHY THING . Owed naught but death and destruction .

So I guess we asked for it, didn't we? We got what we deserved? Being kidnapped repeatedly as children, raped repeatedly by evil Satanic people, tortured repeatedly, threatened to be killed and brought to near death repeatedly, experimented on with all kinds of evil devices, and drugs, chemicals, electro shock etc. So much trauma but we should just get over it that easily? EASY FOR YOU TO SAY!!!!!

You need to be concerned about what's happening in so many churches being used for Satanic rituals!!!!!

 

[amigo de christo]

So I guess we asked for it, didn't we? We got what we deserved? Being kidnapped repeatedly as children, raped repeatedly by evil Satanic people, tortured repeatedly, threatened to be killed and brought to near death repeatedly, experimented on with all kinds of evil devices, drugs, chemicals, electric shock etc. So much trauma but we should just get over it that easily? EASY FOR YOU TO SAY!!!!!

You need to be concerned about what's happening in so many churches being used for Satanic rituals!!!!!

Yall are not the only ones things happened to during childhood . I done forgave and moved on . If GOD can forgive me
for all the evil i did , Then i forgive them . JOY IN THE LORD . PRAISING HIS NAME FOR THE GLORIOUS GIFT OF the MERCY
of His grace given us in Christ . I Dont have have time for the past , and i dont worry over the morrow . SUFFICIENT IS the day
The past is gone , tomorrow might never come , BUT having all joy in CHRIST who shall one day INDEED COME , IS the JOY of the LORD .
And our strength .

 

[truthquest]

Yall are not the only ones things happened to during childhood . I done forgave and moved on . If GOD can forgive me
for all the evil i did , Then i forgive them . JOY IN THE LORD . PRAISING HIS NAME FOR THE GLORIOUS GIFT OF the MERCY
of His grace given us in Christ . I Dont have have time for the past , and i dont worry over the morrow . SUFFICIENT IS the day
The past is gone , tomorrow might never come , BUT having all joy in CHRIST who shall one day INDEED COME , IS the JOY of the LORD .
And our strength .

How many Satanic rituals have you been FORCED to witness????? Do you even know what happens in a Satanic ritual????

No, the past is not gone. WE LIVE WITH IT EVERYDAY.

 

[truthquest]

Yall are not the only ones things happened to during childhood . I done forgave and moved on .

Deuteronomy 32:35 Vengeance is Mine; I will repay. In due time their foot will slip; for their day of disaster is near, and their doom is coming quickly."

 

[TLHKAJ]

You need to be concerned about what's happening in so many churches being used for Satanic rituals!!!!!

Well, sister, he isn't concerned....and sadly, there's probably a very good reason for his dismissal of this reality.

 

[Shattered]

Don't be dismayed by those who arrive to sit in judgment over you. Be of good cheer, remembering that the world hated our Lord Jesus Christ first. We should pray for those who judge wrongly, petitioning the Lord to move upon them so they might remove the log from their own eye. Much has changed over the past few months now that I've merged with a fragment who witnessed great evil being done by the false. We should be merciful and not wrathful. It's a terrible thing to witness and I grieve for them.