I am a guitar player and though I have always saw myself as a Christian I excused myself to play in both Rock and Country bands when I was younger. I played in some five different bands through the course of my latter teen years and my twenties.
I was unstable by virtue of the spirit surrounding that activity. At that time my pride would not allow me to see that. I could have seen it if I were humble enough but I wasn't. And the reason I wasn't was because I wanted to do what I loved to do, and play my music.
That is the cocky invincible attitude which is common to youth in this world.
Being out playing got me around all sorts of physically beautiful woman. That placed temptation in my path that a wise person would have avoided. The lyrics of the songs were enticing me to think the wrong way toward those women. And the beat and the style of the music lubricated the process to make it easier.
We are not being honest with ourselves if we do not admit that even the beat and style of the music by itself recalls those old things learned to enliven again that old man.
It really comes down to what is more important to us. Is it important to us that we avoid the things that work only to weaken our commitment to God through enlivening our old lusts? Or, do we in reality not wish to let go of those things we used to love?
I attribute my relapses to that very thing. I have now made a covenant with my eyes and refuse those things that stimulate me to forget that covenant.
I was unstable by virtue of the spirit surrounding that activity. At that time my pride would not allow me to see that. I could have seen it if I were humble enough but I wasn't. And the reason I wasn't was because I wanted to do what I loved to do, and play my music.
That is the cocky invincible attitude which is common to youth in this world.
Being out playing got me around all sorts of physically beautiful woman. That placed temptation in my path that a wise person would have avoided. The lyrics of the songs were enticing me to think the wrong way toward those women. And the beat and the style of the music lubricated the process to make it easier.
We are not being honest with ourselves if we do not admit that even the beat and style of the music by itself recalls those old things learned to enliven again that old man.
It really comes down to what is more important to us. Is it important to us that we avoid the things that work only to weaken our commitment to God through enlivening our old lusts? Or, do we in reality not wish to let go of those things we used to love?
I attribute my relapses to that very thing. I have now made a covenant with my eyes and refuse those things that stimulate me to forget that covenant.