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I will share my testimony with everyone here, about being Born Again, the last week in 1977.
Now I will half to DEFINE what is REAL FAITH, which is the Opposite of Self Generated Faith.
You see, I have had both in my life. Self Generated Faith can NEVER SAVE YOU. I thought I was a Christian just because I believed the Stories about Jesus were True, and because I took up space on Pew most of the Sundays. At 29 years of age, raised in a Church; YET, I attempted suicide 3 times the last week of December 1977. The first two times I had a Pistol with the trigger half pulled, against my Temple. I MEAN, SHEAR TERROR overwhelmed me, BECAUSE I KNEW I WAS IN THE GATES OF HELL/HADES, ready to WALK RIGHT IN. NO DOUBT IN MY MIND, I was right there, ready to Walk right IN. I knew for sure I WAS NOT SAVED.
That is when a tremendous GUILT for my WHOLE LIFESTYLE, kept washing over me, and I began to weep and MOURN of that sinfulness, LOUDER than a baby. Crying out to the LORD OVER AND OVER AGAIN. PLEASE LORD, FORGIVE ME, PLEASE LORD FORGIVE MY SINFULNESS!
I usually don't tell this Part of my Testimony, because it is something so different. I was having great difficulty that HE could forgive me for all that I had done. HE knew that, and HE snatched me up, and instantly I was literally at the FOOT OF THE CROSS ON MY KNEES as I continued to CRY OUT, PLEASE LORD, FORGIVE ME, PLEASE LORD FORGIVE MY SINFULNESS! It had to be a Vision, my arms were raised up to HIM, AND THEN I NOTICED SOMETHING THAT SEEMED STRANGE AT THAT TIME. THE NAILS WERE NOT IN THE PALM OF HIS HANDS. They were in HIS WRISTS! (I have learned sense then, the JEWS do not consider the wrists to be a separate part of body, but PART OF HIS HANDS.) I looked at both of those NAILS, and blood came out, and fell on my outstretched forearms, and IT FELT WARM. That is where the Vision ENDED, and I knew I was Forgiven. Don't expect your Experience to be like mine, HE KNOWS WHAT YOU WILL NEED TO TRULY Surrender to HIM. The HOLY SPIRIT Will take up Residence in your HEART and HE will spiritually GROW you, and Teach you. AS you become more and more like HIM. Have conversations with HIM as He is your Closest FRIEND.
Now that was never in my head before, and IT IS NOT NOW, EVEN IN MY HEAD, IT WAS A DEEP, DEEP in my HEART, NEVER TO LEAVE ME AGAIN. It was FROM GOD, a GIFT to me, Nothing Could I CONSIDER being OF MYSELF. HE DID IT ALL!
1 Corinthians 15:10 (HCSB)
10 But by God’s grace I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not ineffective. However, I worked more than any of them, yet not I, but God’s grace that was with me.
2 Corinthians 3:5 (HCSB)
5 It is not that we are competent in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our competence is from God.
Philippians 2:13 (HCSB)
13 For it is God who is working in you, enabling you both to desire and to work out His good purpose.
You See being BORN AGAIN is not a WORK, but LETTING THE LORD run your life, WHILE in your HEART (not your head) Loving HIM. It is Not about Head Knowledge, it is about Heart KNOWLEDGE of the LORD. Yes, you will know the difference. It is not about trying to pattern ones life after another, HE WILL BRING you into to Arms. Yes HE will change You! JESUS DOES IT ALL.
Now I will half to DEFINE what is REAL FAITH, which is the Opposite of Self Generated Faith.
You see, I have had both in my life. Self Generated Faith can NEVER SAVE YOU. I thought I was a Christian just because I believed the Stories about Jesus were True, and because I took up space on Pew most of the Sundays. At 29 years of age, raised in a Church; YET, I attempted suicide 3 times the last week of December 1977. The first two times I had a Pistol with the trigger half pulled, against my Temple. I MEAN, SHEAR TERROR overwhelmed me, BECAUSE I KNEW I WAS IN THE GATES OF HELL/HADES, ready to WALK RIGHT IN. NO DOUBT IN MY MIND, I was right there, ready to Walk right IN. I knew for sure I WAS NOT SAVED.
That is when a tremendous GUILT for my WHOLE LIFESTYLE, kept washing over me, and I began to weep and MOURN of that sinfulness, LOUDER than a baby. Crying out to the LORD OVER AND OVER AGAIN. PLEASE LORD, FORGIVE ME, PLEASE LORD FORGIVE MY SINFULNESS!
I usually don't tell this Part of my Testimony, because it is something so different. I was having great difficulty that HE could forgive me for all that I had done. HE knew that, and HE snatched me up, and instantly I was literally at the FOOT OF THE CROSS ON MY KNEES as I continued to CRY OUT, PLEASE LORD, FORGIVE ME, PLEASE LORD FORGIVE MY SINFULNESS! It had to be a Vision, my arms were raised up to HIM, AND THEN I NOTICED SOMETHING THAT SEEMED STRANGE AT THAT TIME. THE NAILS WERE NOT IN THE PALM OF HIS HANDS. They were in HIS WRISTS! (I have learned sense then, the JEWS do not consider the wrists to be a separate part of body, but PART OF HIS HANDS.) I looked at both of those NAILS, and blood came out, and fell on my outstretched forearms, and IT FELT WARM. That is where the Vision ENDED, and I knew I was Forgiven. Don't expect your Experience to be like mine, HE KNOWS WHAT YOU WILL NEED TO TRULY Surrender to HIM. The HOLY SPIRIT Will take up Residence in your HEART and HE will spiritually GROW you, and Teach you. AS you become more and more like HIM. Have conversations with HIM as He is your Closest FRIEND.
Now that was never in my head before, and IT IS NOT NOW, EVEN IN MY HEAD, IT WAS A DEEP, DEEP in my HEART, NEVER TO LEAVE ME AGAIN. It was FROM GOD, a GIFT to me, Nothing Could I CONSIDER being OF MYSELF. HE DID IT ALL!
1 Corinthians 15:10 (HCSB)
10 But by God’s grace I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not ineffective. However, I worked more than any of them, yet not I, but God’s grace that was with me.
2 Corinthians 3:5 (HCSB)
5 It is not that we are competent in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our competence is from God.
Philippians 2:13 (HCSB)
13 For it is God who is working in you, enabling you both to desire and to work out His good purpose.
You See being BORN AGAIN is not a WORK, but LETTING THE LORD run your life, WHILE in your HEART (not your head) Loving HIM. It is Not about Head Knowledge, it is about Heart KNOWLEDGE of the LORD. Yes, you will know the difference. It is not about trying to pattern ones life after another, HE WILL BRING you into to Arms. Yes HE will change You! JESUS DOES IT ALL.
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