How do you go on when 6 things your prayers for last year where used against you. I prayed for the healing of my only Christian family member, prayed that my partner wouldn’t go on holiday because my closest family member was poorly I prayed for the strength of my relationship I prayed for security in our home I prayed for my children’s health and my own.
Two months after my prayers daily I dedicated my time to caring for my sick Auntie she told me to pray for her that she was worried I’d be spiritually alone and I would be pushed out with the rest of the family because of my faith she said she wasn’t ready to go she had so much of Gods work left to do. I gave up my job to balance my childcare and her care I gave thanks to God and kept a positive attitude then a month later the doctor came out and gave my Auntie 1-2month to live ( she passed away 7 days later) now that week she passed on a Friday morning. My husband told me he was cancelling his trip on the Sunday evening Monday I was at my aunts in the evening when I got home my son had an asthma attack, and he nearly lost his life was at hospital with him until 5am the next day had 3 hours sleep.because I got woken by my phone calls my Aunt had taken a turn for the worst I went there after sorting my son out with his meds my dad came up to watch him while my other half was at work I get a call from him in the afternoon to say he’s at the airport about to board his flight for a holiday that he cut it short and he will be back in 5 days. My dad offered to look after my 2 children so I could be with my aunt I was with her all Tuesday came home for a nap that evening back down Wednesday I did all her washing made sure she had all clean clothes and bedding I was back and forth because I wanted to see my children too, Thursday night I stay up all night with my aunt and I dropped off to sleep about 11:45am and she passed away not long after.On her funeral I was shunned and I was alone. My husband is still in his holiday location 3 months on.. he’s met someone else… I also found out he hasn’t payed the mortage for 4 months so we are going through repossession my daughter will barely come out of her room and my son doesn’t speak to me. I feel like all my prayer were used to hurt me. The last thing I want to do is lose faith. But I’m thinking of only praying and giving thanks to him for all the good that’s left in my life… but not asking God for anything anymore because I’m too afraid to ask incase it hurts me like all those things I left in prayer caused me so much hurt. Has anyone experienced this?
Two months after my prayers daily I dedicated my time to caring for my sick Auntie she told me to pray for her that she was worried I’d be spiritually alone and I would be pushed out with the rest of the family because of my faith she said she wasn’t ready to go she had so much of Gods work left to do. I gave up my job to balance my childcare and her care I gave thanks to God and kept a positive attitude then a month later the doctor came out and gave my Auntie 1-2month to live ( she passed away 7 days later) now that week she passed on a Friday morning. My husband told me he was cancelling his trip on the Sunday evening Monday I was at my aunts in the evening when I got home my son had an asthma attack, and he nearly lost his life was at hospital with him until 5am the next day had 3 hours sleep.because I got woken by my phone calls my Aunt had taken a turn for the worst I went there after sorting my son out with his meds my dad came up to watch him while my other half was at work I get a call from him in the afternoon to say he’s at the airport about to board his flight for a holiday that he cut it short and he will be back in 5 days. My dad offered to look after my 2 children so I could be with my aunt I was with her all Tuesday came home for a nap that evening back down Wednesday I did all her washing made sure she had all clean clothes and bedding I was back and forth because I wanted to see my children too, Thursday night I stay up all night with my aunt and I dropped off to sleep about 11:45am and she passed away not long after.On her funeral I was shunned and I was alone. My husband is still in his holiday location 3 months on.. he’s met someone else… I also found out he hasn’t payed the mortage for 4 months so we are going through repossession my daughter will barely come out of her room and my son doesn’t speak to me. I feel like all my prayer were used to hurt me. The last thing I want to do is lose faith. But I’m thinking of only praying and giving thanks to him for all the good that’s left in my life… but not asking God for anything anymore because I’m too afraid to ask incase it hurts me like all those things I left in prayer caused me so much hurt. Has anyone experienced this?