Ive suffered from pretty bad anxiety a lot of my life. When I am in a bad place with anxiety all I think about is my relationship with the Lord, reading the Bible, focusing on it, etc...im sure because of fear/anxiety. When my anxiety is at bay, I am naturally more carefree and jovial which in turn makes my walk not as much as a serious focus in my mind, even though I try to constantly remind myself. I think it's normal to be more carefree in times of not having worry, but its just really frustrated me that I can't always be the focused unless I'm having worry. My mom used to say going round and round the mountain. Hope this makes sense as an input is appreciated.