this is probably morality and ethics but at the same time maybe this is a part of spiritual war
is this blackout rage for a split second? but how come i don't remember that i was on that verge of point? i am angry but not too angry to the point that i would go on a rampage
this happened to me just a moment ago for the first time all my life that split second never been my intention it just happens so suddenly and i was like why did i do that?? that was so embarrassing it never been my intention to shout and say "Shut Up! and be Quiet!" to my nieces because they were disrespecting their mother and their grandmother
their mom asked them to do something but they said "no" followed by "since you said that this is our job where's our salary?" "give it to us!" they are now demanding a salary "i demand that you give us our salary in order for us to do that mom!" i was like are you kidding me? at first i think highly of these kids because they are supposed to be Godly(their other grand parents has their own church and they've been with the word of God since birth) they also opposed and preaches that you can't do that you can't just say "God's name/title" in vain in the phrase omg of those youths nowadays in the philippines(since it's common in other countries to say omg like it's nothing but not in the philippines) but then now they themselves are saying omg all the time...
i did get offended but it's nothing to worry about i can tolerate these things with no worries can tolerate their unreasonable reasonings i.e while the wash room is still vacant and they happened to see you walk to the washroom your niece then take over the wash room before you even step in saying "uncle let me first i just keep on restraining my bladder even if it was about to explode because i was too busy watching the tv"
but because their mom asked me to baby sit them while they are searching for a suitable maid..
i've been already here for 2-3weeks and i've never been so angry with them nor did i do something bad to them their mom who was my sister together with his husband knows about my bad temper and everytime i did something to them i immediately confessed to their parents of course my sis's husband did not say anything but i bet he is quite angry when i lost control(but this was different this time just that i can't explain more clear)
this is the only time i did it i shouted to them while my mom and my nieces are talking to each other while my sis with them they just do not respect mom and they keep talking nonstop saying they do not want to hear what their grandma wants to say despite their own mother telling them to listen they insisted that they do not want to
and this filled me with rage i want to do something but i can't and i don't have the right to i am angry but i don't plan to take an action but suddenly there i shouted the moment that i did it it i clearly do not have the memory of me getting ready or something like that the moment that it triggers i just have no idea why but i remember i did say that out loud
their parents only asked them to do 1 chore everyday that is to take out the trash bag outside and this was too easy for a tween and a 13yr old
is this blackout rage for a split second? but how come i don't remember that i was on that verge of point? i am angry but not too angry to the point that i would go on a rampage
this happened to me just a moment ago for the first time all my life that split second never been my intention it just happens so suddenly and i was like why did i do that?? that was so embarrassing it never been my intention to shout and say "Shut Up! and be Quiet!" to my nieces because they were disrespecting their mother and their grandmother
their mom asked them to do something but they said "no" followed by "since you said that this is our job where's our salary?" "give it to us!" they are now demanding a salary "i demand that you give us our salary in order for us to do that mom!" i was like are you kidding me? at first i think highly of these kids because they are supposed to be Godly(their other grand parents has their own church and they've been with the word of God since birth) they also opposed and preaches that you can't do that you can't just say "God's name/title" in vain in the phrase omg of those youths nowadays in the philippines(since it's common in other countries to say omg like it's nothing but not in the philippines) but then now they themselves are saying omg all the time...
i did get offended but it's nothing to worry about i can tolerate these things with no worries can tolerate their unreasonable reasonings i.e while the wash room is still vacant and they happened to see you walk to the washroom your niece then take over the wash room before you even step in saying "uncle let me first i just keep on restraining my bladder even if it was about to explode because i was too busy watching the tv"
but because their mom asked me to baby sit them while they are searching for a suitable maid..
i've been already here for 2-3weeks and i've never been so angry with them nor did i do something bad to them their mom who was my sister together with his husband knows about my bad temper and everytime i did something to them i immediately confessed to their parents of course my sis's husband did not say anything but i bet he is quite angry when i lost control(but this was different this time just that i can't explain more clear)
this is the only time i did it i shouted to them while my mom and my nieces are talking to each other while my sis with them they just do not respect mom and they keep talking nonstop saying they do not want to hear what their grandma wants to say despite their own mother telling them to listen they insisted that they do not want to
and this filled me with rage i want to do something but i can't and i don't have the right to i am angry but i don't plan to take an action but suddenly there i shouted the moment that i did it it i clearly do not have the memory of me getting ready or something like that the moment that it triggers i just have no idea why but i remember i did say that out loud
their parents only asked them to do 1 chore everyday that is to take out the trash bag outside and this was too easy for a tween and a 13yr old