"A Sinner Among Sinner's Testimony"

[SpiritSoldier]

It started the night I was born I began to mournWhy do I live and breath? Oh rid me of this sleep..I walked through life in crisis where is the price for this?I thought I was born free but I really was in chains of satan's armyI was raised up to Live for the Lord but I fell shortI believed but didn't need a single thing from GODWho is he that I should seek? I was made fun of by kids all my childhoodthey called me names and treated me like some clownNo1 accepted me I barely had friends you seeI became a loner after all who's left out of red rover?You got to be kidding me how are kids this mean? I cried myself home they were brutal to the boneThings were looking up highschool was the stuff that roughed me upHeck why try I didn't do a page of homework in my lifeI met a guy named Rickhe taught me to be cool like the rest of us smoke ciggarettes drink whiskey hey it makes you mistyforget the past and smoke glass it's a blastwe ditched class and soon ditched school we were renegades since 2nd gradeproblems at home problems with Mom and dad guess I better be gladI ran away to be bad and hey had fun stealing like madI was a natural born sinner I went to a rave oh it was great I did acid and thought I had found retributionthis is my future! I screamed for fusion I danced to music and did ecstasy while thinkn I was the best you'd ever seenmy ego hit the roof and jetplaned into the next centuryI found my passion dancing in fashionI wrote poems all about love in the music but I tell you now it was all about meWhat a story I have, from homeless to freeBreed from society I was a nu-breed there was no1 like me, my ego was uniqueI thought I was the antichrist I argued in a fuss no it's in techno I trust! How could I ever see the homosexuality all around me taken advantage of my sensitivity from bad to worsefrom blessed to cursedTrapped in dallas a run away got no place to gohad to go home I made it back it was a miracle in the makingTried to sell my soul to the devil I asked for 70,000 cashBut got nothing but trash I wanted money to partytill the end of time poured out my life into a Dj named Trajikkwho only wanted me to stay and never break away it was rather tragic I must sayI worshipped him like a god I even called him a "techno god"but it ended up in delusion my life I was livin a fantasy not realityMy friend died in a crash it hit my heart and surpassed the pain I hadI don't think he knew GOD or Jesus it was extremely sad to see him passI saw a blue flash in the sky so huge I thought it was an attackit was a call to my spirit a sign from GODIn a car wreck my life flashed in front of me I was alone...I started to realize life was precious and everything turns to a memorydemons attacked me in this realm my roomate was the cause of themthey hit my heart in fear terrifying noises, physical abuse, darkness feltI cried to God for help it never worked I was losing hopeHooked on meth I was at the end of my rope I opened the bible and cried to Jesus the Lamb that I would give my life to him that I would love himI knew hell existed but I didn't know God enlistedI wasn't worried about the pain then one day I thought The worst pain I could feel is not having God's LoveIt was so real it grabbed my heart surreal I was being drawn to the Lord but on the fenceThen one day everything changed it was Good friday I didn't think twice about it that dayI got in a fight with my roomate and said you can't live in the dark foreverhe was livid swearing galore and flaming madI screamed like never before and said I'm f-in out tonight!At that moment God was there and calling me homeI accepted the offer and gave my life to him that nightIt was Good Friday little did I know God had me markedsince then I have embarked on the greatest recovery I have ever known it's not about a 5 minute prayer but a complete commitment a big choice to change.I have went from drug dancing fiend to religious freak, from religious freak to hostile child on file only to find myself who I am today. I am me I am free I am not a self-made man or a man apart of some religious affiliation. Religious people follow some kind of creed christian or jew but I follow my heart and that lead me through them both I am not wholly defined by just religion but also Yahweh God.I am a spiritual being not just a religious being. I can't believe how far I have reached to figure out some mystery some puzzle piece missing the sceneI want to be a truly human but find myself lacking and start slackingGod didn't make it easy he made it possible so I need to remember thealamo I need to remember who I am I need to remember his people the Israelites therefor I now consider myself one of his. I don't deny my Christian Faith or jewish experience therefor I am a Christian Israelite who believes the Law and I follow it to Honor God it is the practical thing that makes my heart sing!To me "Born Again" is partly about being born again as a "child" and rekindling that passion but as a Man tamed only by the one who Reigns.here's some history, I ran away 7 times I was a run away for 7years I came back in 2007 on the 6 through 7th day of April (came back to GOD at night) on good friday. That's how I thought of 007 since I just took the 2 out of this year since that is when I returned. I have nothing to be proud about the glory and honor is all to God. Victory over ciggarette addiction (cold turkey)alcohol abusehabitual drug use ecstasy,meth,marijuana,cocaine,etcaddiction to raves, techno music, hedonistic dancingaddiction to pornagraphy (few relapses)removed tongue,nose,all ear piercings (to not conform to this world) past friends turned back to all ungodly and disowned themcuriosity to homosexuality and abusedemonic attack in this realm(ongoing battle but less powerful)stop shaving (a commandment in leviticus) (calls for patient endurance) and soon....death

 

[crooner]

Sounds like your on the right track. Get lots of christian support around you. If you cant find it call Teen challange close to you. They have a great program and most of time you dont have to come up with money. Doing this on your own wont work. I am glad your here. I will pray for you. God bless your journey,

 

[followerofchrist]

I'm happy for you, and like crooner said you need support! Find some christian groups near you and get together. I will keep you in my prayers!

 

[JIP]

Welcome to the Gods team. Yes true you cannot do it alone. Have Him always with you. Surrender and be in obedienceBe Blessed Always