Hello. I am a girl in her 20's who feels completely alone, devastated, exhausted, and unwilling to fight anymore. Please, don't judge or insult me as this is the last thing I need since I try my best fight and heal my invisible wounds. I am a believer who lives neither in America, nor in England, nor in a country where there are Protestant churches. It's no secret where I live, but I just prefer not to go into such details.
My first biggest devastation was when my only one dream to live abroad where there are such churches and life that I wanted, was completely broken due to many reasons and personal obstacles in my life, making it completely impossible no matter how much I tried. It's really difficult and I can't stand it, I don't find meaning in life.... I even start thinking that I'm cursed or born to be alone and unhappy - my only dream to live abroad was broken and impossible. And I ask God why did he let this happen when so many even non-believers successfully live my dream without even dreaming, working hard, and praying for it? People say that God knows your true desires and when you work hard and pray for them, He will let them happen. And no matter how much I tried, my dream was shattered and made impossible, but people that don't even care about that already live my dream.... Why?
The second heartbreak that is so painful to me is the fact that after my only one dream was broken, I thought that God has a better plan for me here in my country. BUT I feel like my problems here are endless and I will never be truly happy. And I know that no one has a perfect life and everyone has problems. However, nothing in my life here is good, not to mention to get better.. my parents don't care about me, my friends are not real, despite all my hard work, I am treated badly in my work and it's an emotional abuse. And on the top of that - I am experiencing this hell all alone... Also, I am 26 years old and I'm horrified that I will never find the right person and true love. Boys always preferred someone else instead of me and they almost never been interested in me, although my friends say that I have a great character and I am beautiful. All my friends already have long and happy relationships, and so far, I've only had one. While looking in the profiles of Christians in social media, I often see how they define themselves ''blessed and happy people without big problems, to whom God often sends miracles'' They find the love of their lives in a unique way in their early 20s. They build big and happy religious families, which we often see in beautiful photo sessions. They have many amazing and loyal friends....
And I am 26 years old and so far, I have only had one relationship. There is no prospect of meeting the right person anymore, because the places where people meet their loved ones, are impossible for me. I graduated from college, there are no men in my work, and I have 2 girlfriends who also don't go out in big companies. I don't think I've done anything so bad in my life, nor am I a bad person, and I really don't know why nothing good happens in my life. I also pray to meet the love of my life, to have a strong and happy family, but unlike believers in social media, miracles don't happen to me. On the contrary - I'm alone and I don't think I ever have a chance to meet the right person.
Please, from the bottom of my heart, I go to therapy, but I would love for you to give me a piece of advice or just an opinion, because I really feel shattered, exhausted, and I can't anymore ...
My first biggest devastation was when my only one dream to live abroad where there are such churches and life that I wanted, was completely broken due to many reasons and personal obstacles in my life, making it completely impossible no matter how much I tried. It's really difficult and I can't stand it, I don't find meaning in life.... I even start thinking that I'm cursed or born to be alone and unhappy - my only dream to live abroad was broken and impossible. And I ask God why did he let this happen when so many even non-believers successfully live my dream without even dreaming, working hard, and praying for it? People say that God knows your true desires and when you work hard and pray for them, He will let them happen. And no matter how much I tried, my dream was shattered and made impossible, but people that don't even care about that already live my dream.... Why?
The second heartbreak that is so painful to me is the fact that after my only one dream was broken, I thought that God has a better plan for me here in my country. BUT I feel like my problems here are endless and I will never be truly happy. And I know that no one has a perfect life and everyone has problems. However, nothing in my life here is good, not to mention to get better.. my parents don't care about me, my friends are not real, despite all my hard work, I am treated badly in my work and it's an emotional abuse. And on the top of that - I am experiencing this hell all alone... Also, I am 26 years old and I'm horrified that I will never find the right person and true love. Boys always preferred someone else instead of me and they almost never been interested in me, although my friends say that I have a great character and I am beautiful. All my friends already have long and happy relationships, and so far, I've only had one. While looking in the profiles of Christians in social media, I often see how they define themselves ''blessed and happy people without big problems, to whom God often sends miracles'' They find the love of their lives in a unique way in their early 20s. They build big and happy religious families, which we often see in beautiful photo sessions. They have many amazing and loyal friends....
And I am 26 years old and so far, I have only had one relationship. There is no prospect of meeting the right person anymore, because the places where people meet their loved ones, are impossible for me. I graduated from college, there are no men in my work, and I have 2 girlfriends who also don't go out in big companies. I don't think I've done anything so bad in my life, nor am I a bad person, and I really don't know why nothing good happens in my life. I also pray to meet the love of my life, to have a strong and happy family, but unlike believers in social media, miracles don't happen to me. On the contrary - I'm alone and I don't think I ever have a chance to meet the right person.
Please, from the bottom of my heart, I go to therapy, but I would love for you to give me a piece of advice or just an opinion, because I really feel shattered, exhausted, and I can't anymore ...
Half the Christian marriages in the United States end in divorce. 
