Hi there,
So for a long time I have been striving with the people of the world, wanting favour, wanting fame. Ostensibly, I wanted the attention for the truth, but that was really a cover for my own ego. Realistically I was going to grab all the attention, whatever the truth was. I don't think I necessarily "wanted it all", but I was going to deal with that later - meaning "in my own strength".
The thing is, now that I have removed myself from the world and dedicated myself to God, I am spiritually ravenous. I feel like the world has emptied me and left me out of touch with God. I don't know how distant God is. Maybe it's time for the wilderness - I thought I was over it, but how do you tell?
I have a cross, I need to bear that up. I can pray. These things will feed me, that's true. I guess I just need a little spiritual guidance, from people who've backslidden themselves.
Actually, God just reminded me of a dream I had. Maybe I am closer to God than I think? Lord have mercy!
So for a long time I have been striving with the people of the world, wanting favour, wanting fame. Ostensibly, I wanted the attention for the truth, but that was really a cover for my own ego. Realistically I was going to grab all the attention, whatever the truth was. I don't think I necessarily "wanted it all", but I was going to deal with that later - meaning "in my own strength".
The thing is, now that I have removed myself from the world and dedicated myself to God, I am spiritually ravenous. I feel like the world has emptied me and left me out of touch with God. I don't know how distant God is. Maybe it's time for the wilderness - I thought I was over it, but how do you tell?
I have a cross, I need to bear that up. I can pray. These things will feed me, that's true. I guess I just need a little spiritual guidance, from people who've backslidden themselves.
Actually, God just reminded me of a dream I had. Maybe I am closer to God than I think? Lord have mercy!
