Is there a place for mea place where you want me to belord would you still die for methough iv'e done everythingthat is so unworthyI know that I have hurt theethe only, who can save methe only, who can rescue me from methe only, who delivered methe only, who remembers meOh how I want to dwell with the one called godThe one who is my staff, also my rodI am so sorry godfor Iv'e done was wrong=========================Sitting here at my computer desk, I wonder IF: If god will forgive me for all I have done. If, there still is a place for me in heaven, or are my past family and friends looking down upon me in shame and discust. If.. If I am being punished for not living my life according to GOD. If.. If I did lead my life according to god, would my current child still possibly have down syndrome, would I still be with my ex wife, and would I be happy? Would my grandfather have had that stroke, or if my girlfriend would still have her job?Where would my life be?I am stuck in the "Where would my life be", because my life is currently rock bottom. Can I ask god to help me even though I have thrown m back to him? I want to be loved by GOD, life is to much for me to handle alone.I had a life experiance that let me know %100 God is real, I am just afraid I am no longer in his great book anymore.I try to be very nice and helpful to everyone, as I do believe in Karma*, but does believing in Karma go against my belief in God?Lord is there hope left for me, or has the final straw been pulled? Do I just give upMaybe I wasn't destined to go to heaven when I was born, and I am now getting my just desserts.I feel sorry for whoever ends up reading this, as my grammer and thoughs are off pattern.