Is there a place for mea place where you want me to belord would you still die for methough iv'e done everythingthat is so unworthyI know that I have hurt theethe only, who can save methe only, who can rescue me from methe only, who delivered methe only, who remembers meOh how I want to dwell with the one called godThe one who is my staff, also my rodI am so sorry godfor Iv'e done was wrong=========================Sitting here at my computer desk, I wonder IF: If god will forgive me for all I have done. If, there still is a place for me in heaven, or are my past family and friends looking down upon me in shame and discust. If.. If I am being punished for not living my life according to GOD. If.. If I did lead my life according to god, would my current child still possibly have down syndrome, would I still be with my ex wife, and would I be happy? Would my grandfather have had that stroke, or if my girlfriend would still have her job?Where would my life be?I am stuck in the "Where would my life be", because my life is currently rock bottom. Can I ask god to help me even though I have thrown m back to him? I want to be loved by GOD, life is to much for me to handle alone.I had a life experiance that let me know %100 God is real, I am just afraid I am no longer in his great book anymore.I try to be very nice and helpful to everyone, as I do believe in Karma*, but does believing in Karma go against my belief in God?Lord is there hope left for me, or has the final straw been pulled? Do I just give upMaybe I wasn't destined to go to heaven when I was born, and I am now getting my just desserts.I feel sorry for whoever ends up reading this, as my grammer and thoughs are off pattern.
r 1:4 Being made so much better than the angels, as he hath by inheritance obtained a more excellent name than they.These "angels" spoken of include satan.Y'SHUA then was in control of everything on the earth.1Cr 15:27 For he hath put all things under his feet. But when he saith all things are put under [him, it is] manifest that he is excepted, which did put all things under him.However, Y'SHUA came with a precondition and a condition. The Precondition is that one must first accept HIM as their LORD. The Condition is that after that one must follow HIM in all things and with our entirety.Few ever meet both the Precondition and Condition. Most find themselves in between the two. That is acceptable to YHVH as long as we continue to strive after the Image that Y'SHUA left us with...Rom 8:29 For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate [to be] conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.This Condition however comes with a dark side. The dark side is that YHVH is so benevolent that HE will never take back something that HE has given us and HE gave all of us the freedom to choose. We can choose to follow after Y'SHUA or we can choose to serve our "SELF" (a dirty four letter word for sin). HE does not want any that do not want HIM.You conclude with the verse from Ex 7:3-4 and state that YHVH hardened his heart so he had no choice. YHVH does not pre-punish someone. Pharaoh and the Egyptians and enslaved the Jews, treated them badly and worshiped false gods, thus YHVH was hardening the heart of Pharaoh in order to punish him and Egypt for their sins.