I am trying to figure out what God is up to. I crave in person christian fellowship and every time I try to get that fellowship the doors close. I started a few years ago going to a four square church. I got baptized there. The church was mostly filled with old people, probably retired. I'm in my forties. That was fine I figured. I don't care what your age is as long as you love Jesus. Well I kind of got the cold shoulder from them. I don't know if I didn't look right or what. One of the last things a church attendee told me was that my pain was not from God as God would never use pain for his purpose and he would only send good to believers. It really ticked me off. I kind of thought "has this dude ever read the Bible?". Anyway I liked the pastor and thought well I'll get in a group. Well Covid happened and they shut down. The more I thought about it the more I wanted to go to another church. I don't like feeling like an outsider in a group of people.
So when things opened up I started going to a Calvary. I really like the people there as well as the Pastor. I have an issue with pre trib rapture but I figured maybe it doesn't matter. So I started going there and meeting people. Then Covid happened again and they shut down. They opened back up and I tried to get into a group. The group met at a restaurant. Well Covid then shut down restaurants so group was cancelled. So I try to get in another group and the group leader has a severe medical issue(heart attack I think) and group is cancelled. So I try once more and Covid shut down everything again. I think they are open again now. The wife asked me to wear a mask when I go but no else there wears masks. They have a separate room for people to sit in that have health issues etc. No one sits in there. So I would have to sit in there with no fellowship. Well she did get vaccinated so maybe it doesn't matter now.
I am just growing weary of trying to find someone who loves Jesus and wants to talk about him. The doors just seem to close.
Is God preventing me from being around certain people? Why would he not want me going to church and having fellowship? It's getting frustrating.
So when things opened up I started going to a Calvary. I really like the people there as well as the Pastor. I have an issue with pre trib rapture but I figured maybe it doesn't matter. So I started going there and meeting people. Then Covid happened again and they shut down. They opened back up and I tried to get into a group. The group met at a restaurant. Well Covid then shut down restaurants so group was cancelled. So I try to get in another group and the group leader has a severe medical issue(heart attack I think) and group is cancelled. So I try once more and Covid shut down everything again. I think they are open again now. The wife asked me to wear a mask when I go but no else there wears masks. They have a separate room for people to sit in that have health issues etc. No one sits in there. So I would have to sit in there with no fellowship. Well she did get vaccinated so maybe it doesn't matter now.
I am just growing weary of trying to find someone who loves Jesus and wants to talk about him. The doors just seem to close.
Is God preventing me from being around certain people? Why would he not want me going to church and having fellowship? It's getting frustrating.