- Aug 13, 2006
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Things are realy good at the minute exams but they are goin well and friends and relations are good, only smething isnt right. i went to a church a little while ago and it was really good service, but cut me to ribbons inside and i cried not able to tell the lady beside me who was praying for me why. i couldnt do it, couldnt be a christian couldnt be a muslim.i want the community the feeling of purpose in life and this all sounds shallow because there is no mention of wanting to God's work. i cannot figure if it is through others or my own mind that i doubt faith in ways. i have devout friends and they are happy but i cant believe their way. Therer is a hole in my life and i think it isnt having God or letting God in, I'm scared that to do that will mean it will be bad that i will become intolerant of those around me those i love for really i see no evil in what they do. its like the whole world is grey for somethings maybe right in some cases and not others. I try to blot it not to think of it for ages, but the pain doesnt go away, Could you offer any advice please, xxx