I "liked" BarneyFife's post so as to say that I agreed with his concern and missing you on here but I should've used the "Love" emoji instead. Welcome back.
Never lose your faith in God and follow other false gods and idols just because of "people's" flaws, not God's, dear Johann. It says that many will fall away from the faith because they will see something like powers, signs and miracles from other false god's/idols and be deceived so I don't want you to be one of them so just a reminder of the Word of God. I also urge you to be water baptized, it speaks of baptism to be in immersion in water in the bible, God's Word, we need to follow God's Word, to be baptized for the remission of sins and to receive the Holy Spirit and be born again and once we're born again we will have a nature to always want to please God and do right (be a new creation, the old has passed away), and we will no longer be just blindly following God's Word. I urge you to get water baptized to see if you will feel differently after it, to test the spirits as it tells us to do in the Word of God. I believe it's more than just symbolic but a supernatural act that brings God to act supernaturally in us. God bless. All the best, love tl_p. I am actually surprised that someone who I thought was so strong in the Lord seems to be falling away?