Hi there,
So there are a few ways of interpreting how I identify with Christ. On the one hand, I identify "divisionally" with other divisions of Christ - "divi" being short for division. On the other hand, I identify this division of Christ as divine - "divi" for divine - that is, sharing in part the divinity of Christ, as Christ was son to the Father. And again in another sense, I am part of a 'dividual' - as opposed to an "individual" - my identity is caught up in the Church, the Bride, who is expressed infinitely as an infinite number of individuals. This being dividual expresses that my relationship with Christ, is tentative; I cannot imagine myself as anything other than "born to God", subdivided from the Church as a child to God.
This being "divi-Christian" is also sort of a response to being "a demi-Christian", someone whose theology is that they are great in the faith. I do not regard myself as being 'great in the faith', I do not attempt to serve the Christian faith in "greatness". I regard this as an illusion. Christ gives us a measure of work to do through the Holy Spirit - but that work is finite, while we are here on Earth. It may be infinite (work) in Heaven, but it is not on Earth. The point is to humble yourself as a Christian, to see other Christians as greater, for their faith and service; to understand that one's faith as a divi-Christian may never be greater than that of other Christians.
There is a slang term for a police car, here in Australia, which is to call it a "divvy van" divvy, like divi suggests that you have a lesser place in society, but also in sense that you should relish it: the phrase used is "you're going home in the back of a divvy van", colloquially using the term divvy van as both "home" and prison. Whenever I have been arrested on suspicion of mental health issues, I have been in the back of a divvy van, but despite this, never lost sight of my Christian identity. I am a divvy van Christian. I am going home in the back of a Christian divvy van. It helps me stay grounded, to understand that the world does not understand my identity - but that before God, my identity is how He welcomes me, forever home as a divi-Christian.
Lastly there is a sense in which I am "divided" as a Christian, my sin divides me from other Christians. I communicate differently, work differently, pay similar, but justify differently. I bear these states of being divided within me, as something I cannot resolve in this life - but that I rather look forward to the next life, in which my Christianity resolves everything. I start a divi-Christian, but I end up a Christian with no reason to be divided from others like me. God justifies this, God gives me an identity which is partial, which is provisional, I am not expected to do everything, with all manner of power, this side of eternity, but rather am to keep faith in eternity, when my corruption will be put off. Why call myself a provisional name, when I have the evidence of the next life already? I am divisive, divi-Christian, divisive Christian, aware that I betray my fellow Christians in ways I can't help, that I doubt other expressions of faith without knowing to what end, I want to cry "unclean! unclean!" to put myself in the hands of Christ only, for my healing, my supervaling, my enriching.
Wisdom on its own is a snare, even to the wise. I want this to be a reminder that I take my Christianity seriously, but not as seriously as the Devil. I want to stand out for coming back to the faith, not linger with a division that I am unaware of the meaning of, as if I have given myself something different, to the rest of the faith, sheerly by faith and not of works. I will work as a divi-Christian, I will stand with the mentally oppressed, the relationally sick, the school of hard knocks marked. I want to remember that I am not there yet. I want to understand that I am going to the house of mourning. I want to understand that I have defined myself in relationship to something I was born to, not knowing the meaning of, but giving my own meaning to, that it be clear I have no reservations about, in the end. If I can just take on a persona, if I can just refuse the Devil on grounds that I know are within reach for us both, then I will have the happiness of the Lord, not just in my head, but in my heart. I will manifest the miracles of a change of relationship, not just for the here and now, but for ever.
I have "divine wisdom" as a "divi-Christian", I hope that it plays out before God, as something that suits Him. If I fail, I have only to "divise" a way back, what's not to take a chance on? It may ultimately comfort fellow Christians, that I am not attempting to be the Christian - the great Christian - that they are. Not without permission, as if the Holy Spirit is absent, when actually He is all the more present. It actually feels a little lackluster finishing with the idea, that I have attempted to grasp a difference of faith, purely on the basis of interpretation. Maybe that's an ill that has to stop here? I won't just go back in the opposite direction, I will define myself in service to the rest of the faith - keeping my eye on that Day, when those with me can say "Yes! That's what we were asking!" I am indebted to Christianity, I owe my definition to Christianity, divi-Christ-like I will be.
May I be ready to go the extra mile, when its asked - not just when its in my head!
God bless.
So there are a few ways of interpreting how I identify with Christ. On the one hand, I identify "divisionally" with other divisions of Christ - "divi" being short for division. On the other hand, I identify this division of Christ as divine - "divi" for divine - that is, sharing in part the divinity of Christ, as Christ was son to the Father. And again in another sense, I am part of a 'dividual' - as opposed to an "individual" - my identity is caught up in the Church, the Bride, who is expressed infinitely as an infinite number of individuals. This being dividual expresses that my relationship with Christ, is tentative; I cannot imagine myself as anything other than "born to God", subdivided from the Church as a child to God.
This being "divi-Christian" is also sort of a response to being "a demi-Christian", someone whose theology is that they are great in the faith. I do not regard myself as being 'great in the faith', I do not attempt to serve the Christian faith in "greatness". I regard this as an illusion. Christ gives us a measure of work to do through the Holy Spirit - but that work is finite, while we are here on Earth. It may be infinite (work) in Heaven, but it is not on Earth. The point is to humble yourself as a Christian, to see other Christians as greater, for their faith and service; to understand that one's faith as a divi-Christian may never be greater than that of other Christians.
There is a slang term for a police car, here in Australia, which is to call it a "divvy van" divvy, like divi suggests that you have a lesser place in society, but also in sense that you should relish it: the phrase used is "you're going home in the back of a divvy van", colloquially using the term divvy van as both "home" and prison. Whenever I have been arrested on suspicion of mental health issues, I have been in the back of a divvy van, but despite this, never lost sight of my Christian identity. I am a divvy van Christian. I am going home in the back of a Christian divvy van. It helps me stay grounded, to understand that the world does not understand my identity - but that before God, my identity is how He welcomes me, forever home as a divi-Christian.
Lastly there is a sense in which I am "divided" as a Christian, my sin divides me from other Christians. I communicate differently, work differently, pay similar, but justify differently. I bear these states of being divided within me, as something I cannot resolve in this life - but that I rather look forward to the next life, in which my Christianity resolves everything. I start a divi-Christian, but I end up a Christian with no reason to be divided from others like me. God justifies this, God gives me an identity which is partial, which is provisional, I am not expected to do everything, with all manner of power, this side of eternity, but rather am to keep faith in eternity, when my corruption will be put off. Why call myself a provisional name, when I have the evidence of the next life already? I am divisive, divi-Christian, divisive Christian, aware that I betray my fellow Christians in ways I can't help, that I doubt other expressions of faith without knowing to what end, I want to cry "unclean! unclean!" to put myself in the hands of Christ only, for my healing, my supervaling, my enriching.
Wisdom on its own is a snare, even to the wise. I want this to be a reminder that I take my Christianity seriously, but not as seriously as the Devil. I want to stand out for coming back to the faith, not linger with a division that I am unaware of the meaning of, as if I have given myself something different, to the rest of the faith, sheerly by faith and not of works. I will work as a divi-Christian, I will stand with the mentally oppressed, the relationally sick, the school of hard knocks marked. I want to remember that I am not there yet. I want to understand that I am going to the house of mourning. I want to understand that I have defined myself in relationship to something I was born to, not knowing the meaning of, but giving my own meaning to, that it be clear I have no reservations about, in the end. If I can just take on a persona, if I can just refuse the Devil on grounds that I know are within reach for us both, then I will have the happiness of the Lord, not just in my head, but in my heart. I will manifest the miracles of a change of relationship, not just for the here and now, but for ever.
I have "divine wisdom" as a "divi-Christian", I hope that it plays out before God, as something that suits Him. If I fail, I have only to "divise" a way back, what's not to take a chance on? It may ultimately comfort fellow Christians, that I am not attempting to be the Christian - the great Christian - that they are. Not without permission, as if the Holy Spirit is absent, when actually He is all the more present. It actually feels a little lackluster finishing with the idea, that I have attempted to grasp a difference of faith, purely on the basis of interpretation. Maybe that's an ill that has to stop here? I won't just go back in the opposite direction, I will define myself in service to the rest of the faith - keeping my eye on that Day, when those with me can say "Yes! That's what we were asking!" I am indebted to Christianity, I owe my definition to Christianity, divi-Christ-like I will be.
May I be ready to go the extra mile, when its asked - not just when its in my head!
God bless.
