You want to be, both, the prosecutor AND the jury. Any objective person would consider the prosecutions case a joke if their position was the Defendant does not exist but his lawyer parades billions of Witnesses who Testify the Defendant does exist AND does so much for them.
If there was no defendant there would not be a trial! You'd be laughed out of court, and rightly so.
So nothing has changed here. You still haven't stumped up one single shred of objective direct evidence for your claims of a Christian God.
You claim to be special, to have had special treatment despite the Bible clearly saying that your God has no favourites, that all are treated the same. You claim that the supernatural exists but the reality is there are things in the universe that we don't yet understand. So it's all natural, all nature, it doesn't need any spooky nonsense attaching to it.
I ask myself a simple question. Would someone who had seen God, had a special undeniable revelation be wasting their time sitting in their pyjamas in their bedroom making silly posts on a forum? No I seriously doubt it. With incontrovertible proof of God's existence they'd be out and about probably abroad helping the sick, those fleeing their country due to war or disaster and so on, as Jesus would.
The truth is you're just another human desperately looking to justify your existence, trying to fill a void because you can't face the reality of the universe and your tiny insignificant place within it. You need to feel wanted, special, somehow above others and religious piety fills that void. It's comfortable, you have the support of lots of other people engaging in the same self-denial, it's self-fulfilling to the point that people then perpetuate the system and bring others into it. It's a free world, you can believe in whatever helps you get through the day. No skin off my back as they say provided you don't impact others with your chosen beliefs, but there's the rub. Religion DOES impact others, it impacts laws and attitudes to others. The world would be better without religions.
Nothing that religion offers as a system of societal benefit can't be equally achieved simply by people being good humans. Humanism.
But it's not about giving societal benefit. It's about control. Religion is simply a system of societal control, to condition the masses to be pacifists, to not turn against their rulers who simply laugh at them. At the same time it exploits vulnerable people, relieves them of their money much of which goes up the chain.
The works that contribute to the Bible are remarkable and contain many important secrets. Secrets of healing, immortality and so on. The Church does not teach these secrets, most of it's pastors are likely totally clueless about the secrets as are 99.9% of the flock. They will never come to the truth because they are shackled by the system, blinkered to all avenues except that prescribed for them. They can't even concede that they might have been duped and mislead. That's pride, piousness, self-denial.
The mind should always be open. Always free to think objectively and critically. Never placed in a box, never shackled, never led by reins and a bit like a horse.
You are shackled from head to toe. Shackles of your own choosing. You are not free. You are owned by a system of control. There you will stay until you can lay aside your pride.