I know you're all here... the one thing that hurts me the most is my inability to open up to people... and I get extremely, extremely defensive about it, because I have an incredibly hard time trusting other people.One of the reasons why I don't is because it leaves me open to ridicule, embarrassment, humiliation, insults, condemnation, judgment, and just every other form of personal attack you can think of (like we've already seen in this thread)... and I don't want nor need that in my life. It only makes matters worse.(Christina;59163)
Great KalGlad you are taking a positive step God walks beside you but he doesn't tell what do to
now, see, that I disagree with... there was a time in my life... about a year ago next month... where I literally felt something pull on me and spiritually call out to me... and when I say that, I mean emotionally, physically, spiritually, and mentally; of course, I'm not talking like a voice with my ears, it was all internal (so to speak)... in the span of about 10 seconds, I had the feeling of something grabbing my innermost being and pulling me to find out if a certain person was a Christian or not. It almost got to the point to where it started to spiritually hurt... in 3 seconds, it got to the point to where if I didn't do it, I would of felt sick to my stomach.Now, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this was God telling me to do something, because had I of not done what He was telling me, I never would of found the incredible church that I'm a member of right now, and I would of killed myself a long time ago... this church has helped me grow so much, and it continues to help me grow.there was even another instance earlier this year where I had to go somewhere, and everything in my mind said "go", and I was ready to go, even if it was midnight... and something happened that night, it was not me or my prayer, it was not anything that I could of done... the only explanation that I can give is that it was the Holy Spirit working through me..so I have to disagree with you when you say He doesn't tell us what to do