Ok if you are reading this, thank you. I know this should probably go under the testimony forum but just bear with me and you will see why. Alright, first off my name is Garrett and i am 14 years old. I was just saved this summer at a church camp that i have been goin to for about 3 years or so. Before I went to this church camp this year, i have to admit I was not the best of a kid. I was raised in a church environment and still am being raised that way praise The Lord! However, no one could tell it...this i can promise you. I started to get into porn at a sorta young, i believe it was my 6th grade year( which i am now in 8th grade). I was starting to get those thoughts that every teen has throughout the course of my 7th grade year as well. But then, this summer happened. This summer i went to church camp thinkng that it would be another boring year at church camp and that it was going to be another one of those years where i just go to pay guitar in the talent show. But on the night before the talent show, got saved. I went from being this kid that was potentially possibly going to have a kid by his junior year in high school to a kid that is someday going to be an angel in heaven! And man was it a absolutely great feeling! However, the high that your on after a revival, church camp, convo, or anything like that seems to die away eventually or rather...the battle begins when you leave the home base. i came home and for months I was tryin my hardest to please god! But now, im starting to get back into the masturbation, porn, and cussing again. I dont know what to do, i know i need to listen to god but for some reason it i still do it. I just need everyone to pray for me because this eats me up every night when i am laying in bed at night, wondering if tommorrow is gonna be that day that i quit..or do it even more..i want tommorrow to be the day that i quit. I have had the urge to talk to my pastor about it but i am honestly afraid that he will look badly of me for it and maybe even possibly laugh at me. Which probably isnt the case but yet, still feel nervous about it. I need some good Christian advice and i need to know maye the steps to start taking. Please pray for guys that i will repent and fine who i truly am. Please pray that i will find that young 14 year old boy at church camp! Please pray guys...please.