I was just thinking how many christians I know see feeling like they're weak in faith is such a bad thing... like they so don't want to beat themselves up about it that they just reject that maybe it's their faith that's hindering them... so hears where I'm at... I'm gonna stop beating myself up about it and just see it like an obstacle to overcome... it's like as soon as we become Christian's some of us freak out when we don't just start raising the dead and say, "It must be because we can't do it because feeling like I don't have faith must mean I'm bad"... The thought just came that we're saved by grace but empowered by faith... I mean I guess as a surfer I have a good understanding how faith increases... like nobody goes out their first day when it's 20 feet... you build yourself up over time and you keep pushing yourself and eventually you reach higher and higher levels of faith in the water... even the disciples who walked with Christ followed that principle... they didn't start out with faith that could move mountains... they started off tripping out about where the food would come from and whether the storm was going to take them down yet grew as they practiced... so I'm over beating myself up about my lack of faith and I'm going to start seeing it as a practice and almost like a sport... like a race in a Paulish kind of way... and the more I practice the better I'll get... till the day when the morning star has risen fully in my heart... the light...