I was blessed with plenty of rest so I'm refreshed. I'll write this so the air will be clear.
You didn't trigger my alters so be at ease,
@lilygrace . Just as there are many mansions in our Father's house there's a place in my heart for the precious ones of the Lord, the One who called me out of this world a long time ago.
@Jostler and
@TLHKAJ know the truth for themselves, how God brought me to a female survivor alone in the wilderness. She was rejected by everyone she knew... even her own children... so this is the one of whom the Lord said,
I love her like no other. Behold, your mother.
She was the mother whom God gave to me. I became the son who was taken away from her minutes after he was born. The Lord's mercy and kindness is too great for my words.
I didn't know that she suffered from DID and I didn't know about the horrors this precious soul endured over the long years of her life. This was therefore my introduction to DID in a way only the Lord Himself could provide: when she learned that I love and serve Jesus Christ, her alters started coming forward and so that was my introduction to DID. But the Lord loves her like no other and so His Spirit encouraged me, saying He would tell me what I needed to do and give me words when I needed to speak them.
I know you're not into long posts so you can stop reading here if you'd like. I just want to reassure you that Jostler and TLHKAJ more than understand what we survivors go through and what dealing with alternate personalities is like. You don't owe anyone an apology.
The Lord prepared me to confront DID in myself through my experience with my adopted mother. Therefore I was already armed and armored to face this battle... when it began Jostler and TLHKAJ were
already in my life, still more provision from the Lord. He prepared for me this, but at no time did His Spirit say this battle would be a simple one. No... it's the greatest challenge I've yet to face in this life.
Like I wrote, I'm a skilled spotter of snakes. I can see them slithering in the grass so their camouflage doesn't fool me. God has given me a heart for His precious ones, the survivors among whom I'm numbered, and so I'm very protective of His precious ones when I spot a snake in the grass. The snake makes my blood boil and triggers protector alters. With the breaking of my programming, the assassins in their brokenness swore an oath to become protectors and so my systems are filled with protectors.
They hate the snake in the grass.