Hi!
I would like some advice and suggestion please. I am fairly new to Christianity, originally ai'm Arab so my upbringing was traditional and faithful. I could not confide in my mama about this decision (Jesus Christ as my Savior), it would break her heart and worsen the anxiety. Since Im raised like a little girl in many respects, I do have a lot to catch up in becoming independent. I am very grateful my family also aspire for me to get ahead in life. I want to do this as authentic and peaceful, because throughout my struggles were "why am not happy in my religion?" .. "is it because of religion or me? Maybe both" and other quarterlife problematic questions.
I am hoping my sincerity in the faith is true. I have learned what I could about Christianity online, what stands out to me is the verse we are "saved by grace through faith in Christ Jesus and not by our own efforts or works (Ephesians 2:8-9)"
This has cause some anxiety. I do believe in the once saved, always saved.. It reassures me, as whehn I first heard about the Lord I was moved by Him very much. Later, I've had to renounce this faith due to external reasons but after some time I came back to Christ.
Sometimes now, ai second-guess myself, "is this temporary for me? Am I serious about my belief in Jesus?" I'm aware that after the pandemic I had a lot to reflect over, studies are held online and I do not have enough interactions or go out much.
I live among Muslims only and I have looked back but my want to return for Islam is not happening.. My things are also from former lifestyle and beliefs such as books, writings etc. In a way... I wish to have a Bible with me and not digital, but my pocket money is little and my family are in charge of financial aspect. I wonder if God wants me to have no other means except faith, for now.
There are times I tell myself, "you arent being serious about this, you will pray to Allah (5 daily) again" then I somehow do opposite and enjoy a Bible study, it gets better.
Other things I want to make note here:
I'm not water baptised. Churches are far away and I hardly travel far so chances of me to meet a Christian or church is slim, for now. I also don't have any Christian friend online who will advise and follow up my progress, please let me know if you're willing.. I dont have fb or instagram until recently, I'm not used to it.
Second-guessing myself comes and goes. Also because ai grew up without a dad or bro, so on discovering that I have Father ever since, it was amazing.. Now however, I wonder "is my faith only because what I lacked ai have found in Christianity for this?'.. I can reflect on the Lord, His Miracles such but I question is it just my mind entertaining this idea? As if there is a back-door to Islam in my heart.. Although listening or reading the Word though, none of these second-guesses arise much.
I poured my heart so I'm sorry for any nervous tone in my words and long post.. Please let me know any suggestion/advice or thoughts
Thank you
I would like some advice and suggestion please. I am fairly new to Christianity, originally ai'm Arab so my upbringing was traditional and faithful. I could not confide in my mama about this decision (Jesus Christ as my Savior), it would break her heart and worsen the anxiety. Since Im raised like a little girl in many respects, I do have a lot to catch up in becoming independent. I am very grateful my family also aspire for me to get ahead in life. I want to do this as authentic and peaceful, because throughout my struggles were "why am not happy in my religion?" .. "is it because of religion or me? Maybe both" and other quarterlife problematic questions.
I am hoping my sincerity in the faith is true. I have learned what I could about Christianity online, what stands out to me is the verse we are "saved by grace through faith in Christ Jesus and not by our own efforts or works (Ephesians 2:8-9)"
This has cause some anxiety. I do believe in the once saved, always saved.. It reassures me, as whehn I first heard about the Lord I was moved by Him very much. Later, I've had to renounce this faith due to external reasons but after some time I came back to Christ.
Sometimes now, ai second-guess myself, "is this temporary for me? Am I serious about my belief in Jesus?" I'm aware that after the pandemic I had a lot to reflect over, studies are held online and I do not have enough interactions or go out much.
I live among Muslims only and I have looked back but my want to return for Islam is not happening.. My things are also from former lifestyle and beliefs such as books, writings etc. In a way... I wish to have a Bible with me and not digital, but my pocket money is little and my family are in charge of financial aspect. I wonder if God wants me to have no other means except faith, for now.
There are times I tell myself, "you arent being serious about this, you will pray to Allah (5 daily) again" then I somehow do opposite and enjoy a Bible study, it gets better.
Other things I want to make note here:
I'm not water baptised. Churches are far away and I hardly travel far so chances of me to meet a Christian or church is slim, for now. I also don't have any Christian friend online who will advise and follow up my progress, please let me know if you're willing.. I dont have fb or instagram until recently, I'm not used to it.
Second-guessing myself comes and goes. Also because ai grew up without a dad or bro, so on discovering that I have Father ever since, it was amazing.. Now however, I wonder "is my faith only because what I lacked ai have found in Christianity for this?'.. I can reflect on the Lord, His Miracles such but I question is it just my mind entertaining this idea? As if there is a back-door to Islam in my heart.. Although listening or reading the Word though, none of these second-guesses arise much.
I poured my heart so I'm sorry for any nervous tone in my words and long post.. Please let me know any suggestion/advice or thoughts
Thank you
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