[editor’s note: gonna be sending this one mostly unedited, feel some raw suffering here, since I don’t know how long I have before my mother comes back downstairs]
tfw i gotta phone call my insurance broker. planned on telling them it seems likely i have:
adhd, autism, anxiety, burnout, depression, stress, suicidal thoughts in the past, shortness of breath, stress, tiredness, trauma, etc.
mother said I was diagnosed at birth for asthma tho so I got that at least
and my first worry being how much it will increase my monthly insurance premium for me to pay
also the fact that they're familiar with my mom who works in insurance too has me wondering whether they will tell my mom about this stuff
also me going somewhere random outside and searching how to call directly to a person's voicemail cuz i feel nervous
interesting fact tho: i was studying some insurance and planned to go into an insurance related job but didnt make it in
ok so
my fingers are freezing
it hard to move them now
i called hoping it would go to voicemail but OF COURSE they pick up and say "hello"
so i hang up in panic
wherres these peoples email or something?????
so i put my hands in my pocket wanderin around trying to warm up
auuuuggghhhy
hey its just a phone call right
but this person knows my MOM
andi have to somehow get the courage to give like that script above of my conditions
AUUUGGHHHHHH
so i pray to God to give me the confidence i need to just say what I need to say and end the call
alright
lets do this
ALSOCCUZ MY HANDS ARE FREEZING RN
I CANT WAIT ANY LONGER
augghhh
okkkk i did it
buttttt
they gave me another phone number
i gotta call
jts 8:11 PM today dec 12 2023
reason im so nervous is cuz im afraid my mothers going to insult me because of this stuff
it so cold my fingers can barely move
ok well turns out they have email this whole time
auuuuuggggghhhhhhhhhhh
this is so much tension im gritting my teeth
ok at least i can word it properly
Editor's Note: My mom is here with me so I'm typing this on my phone. I feel tense with her near me, watching me. I believe that, no matter how tense things get for people, that eventually they shall all be given permanent peace εἰρήνη (eirēnē) of God, permanent salvation, by faith only in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:7 NRSVue And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
https://biblehub.com/interlinear/philippians/4-7.ht
Sent the email now. Oh and my mom comes down again
tfw i gotta phone call my insurance broker. planned on telling them it seems likely i have:
adhd, autism, anxiety, burnout, depression, stress, suicidal thoughts in the past, shortness of breath, stress, tiredness, trauma, etc.
mother said I was diagnosed at birth for asthma tho so I got that at least
and my first worry being how much it will increase my monthly insurance premium for me to pay
also the fact that they're familiar with my mom who works in insurance too has me wondering whether they will tell my mom about this stuff
also me going somewhere random outside and searching how to call directly to a person's voicemail cuz i feel nervous
interesting fact tho: i was studying some insurance and planned to go into an insurance related job but didnt make it in
ok so
my fingers are freezing
it hard to move them now
i called hoping it would go to voicemail but OF COURSE they pick up and say "hello"
so i hang up in panic
wherres these peoples email or something?????
so i put my hands in my pocket wanderin around trying to warm up
auuuuggghhhy
hey its just a phone call right
but this person knows my MOM
andi have to somehow get the courage to give like that script above of my conditions
AUUUGGHHHHHH
so i pray to God to give me the confidence i need to just say what I need to say and end the call
alright
lets do this
ALSOCCUZ MY HANDS ARE FREEZING RN
I CANT WAIT ANY LONGER
augghhh
okkkk i did it
buttttt
they gave me another phone number
i gotta call
jts 8:11 PM today dec 12 2023
reason im so nervous is cuz im afraid my mothers going to insult me because of this stuff
it so cold my fingers can barely move
ok well turns out they have email this whole time
auuuuuggggghhhhhhhhhhh
this is so much tension im gritting my teeth
ok at least i can word it properly
Editor's Note: My mom is here with me so I'm typing this on my phone. I feel tense with her near me, watching me. I believe that, no matter how tense things get for people, that eventually they shall all be given permanent peace εἰρήνη (eirēnē) of God, permanent salvation, by faith only in Christ Jesus.
Philippians 4:7 NRSVue And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
https://biblehub.com/interlinear/philippians/4-7.ht
Sent the email now. Oh and my mom comes down again