Not sure I am understanding you right Jennifer, so if I am way of base, just ignore my post xx
Coming to Christ, receiving the Holy Spirit doesn’t always mean that everything within us is resolved or sorted. Some people have amazing testimonies of healing and they instantly feel the love within their heart, others, like me, needed to heal. I knew and accepted the truth in my mind, but locked my heart tightly because I had been hurt and abused. Endeavouring to proclaim a message of freedom and love was one thing, but actually feeling it myself was quite another. It was like being two people. In time the Holy Spirit has beeen my true counsellor and God has been so patient, he knew what was there in my heart and it consisted of anger, hurt, bitterness, regret, sorrow, frustration.......... a whole bunch of things. I use to journal and mind map- and I penned what I really felt - nothing like David’s psalms , I was definitely bitter x
As I said , I may be way of base xx
Rita