Michael0401
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I would like to share that the fear that I may have blasphemed the Spirit gripped me this morning. And it wasn't the first time that this thought/fear has been experienced.
As the thought of, "maybe I did blaspheme the Holy Spirit" raced through my mind earlier this morning, my perspective was being rocked.
From my experience, the way I interpret my experiences and even my identity can be emphatically different based on how I view certain things. I think this would be true of most, if not all.
As my sin was brought to mind, I wanted to ask for forgiveness, but it seemed like I was running into a wall because I viewed my sin as an unforgivable sin (i.e. blaspheming the Holy Spirit). What's the point in asking for forgiveness for something that can't be forgiven... With that thought and perspective in mind (that my sin was unforgivable... that I blasphemed the Spirit), how quickly my viewpoint on reality was darkening. With that perspective in mind, it was as if everything in my Christian walk since that sin were up for questioning... Maybe none of the good things I have experienced in my Christian walk since then were legit...
I see a similar thing, maybe not exactly, but similar in your experience.
For example, you mentioned that you felt, what seemed to [you], the departing of the Holy Spirit. That is your interpretation of what you experienced, my friend. But that may not actually have taken place.
Additionally, you mentioned that your heart felt like a stone and that you didn't feel any love or desire for the Lord. You also mentioned, (and I'm paraphrasing a little bit here) struggling with how you interacted with, experienced, and felt about the Scriptures. When you opened your Bible, they seemed merely "like words on a page" and that the Scriptures were not being "illuminated." You also mentioned not feeling convicted. Your interpretation is that these experiences are possible evidence that you have committed the unforgivable sin and/or that the Spirit has left you.
But what if that interpretation is wrong?
What if all of these experiences (how you have felt) are NOT evidence that you did commit an unforgivable sin / or that the Spirit has left you? Of course, the evidence that you still want God's approval/pleasure sort of (or maybe completely) derails that unwanted interpretation.
My friend, your interpreation is wrong. But it is your choice as to how you will see it. Do you believe you commited an unforgivable sin? Do you believe the Holy Spirit has left you?
This morning, in the midst of doubts, I chose to believe that I did not commit blasphemy against the Spirit. I chose to believe that my sin, my words, have been forgiven and never were what Jesus was referring to as blasphemy of the Holy Spirit.
Batheltler01, would you do the same? It is a choice...
Dear reader, would you do the same? Is is a choice...
IT IS A CHOICE YOU CAN MAKE. IT IS THE RIGHT CHOICE TO MAKE.
Choose to believe the sin(s) you have committed have been forgiven, and that they never were what Jesus was referring to as an unpardonable sin. Choose to believe this. If doubt springs up (the "but what if..."), choose to believe! Choose to believe that what you did or did not do were, and are NOT, the unpardonable sin... they are NOT blaspheming the Holy Spirit and they never were... Choose to believe that GOD has NOT removed HIS SPIRIT from you. It is your choice...
Choose to believe!
As the thought of, "maybe I did blaspheme the Holy Spirit" raced through my mind earlier this morning, my perspective was being rocked.
From my experience, the way I interpret my experiences and even my identity can be emphatically different based on how I view certain things. I think this would be true of most, if not all.
As my sin was brought to mind, I wanted to ask for forgiveness, but it seemed like I was running into a wall because I viewed my sin as an unforgivable sin (i.e. blaspheming the Holy Spirit). What's the point in asking for forgiveness for something that can't be forgiven... With that thought and perspective in mind (that my sin was unforgivable... that I blasphemed the Spirit), how quickly my viewpoint on reality was darkening. With that perspective in mind, it was as if everything in my Christian walk since that sin were up for questioning... Maybe none of the good things I have experienced in my Christian walk since then were legit...
I see a similar thing, maybe not exactly, but similar in your experience.
For example, you mentioned that you felt, what seemed to [you], the departing of the Holy Spirit. That is your interpretation of what you experienced, my friend. But that may not actually have taken place.
Additionally, you mentioned that your heart felt like a stone and that you didn't feel any love or desire for the Lord. You also mentioned, (and I'm paraphrasing a little bit here) struggling with how you interacted with, experienced, and felt about the Scriptures. When you opened your Bible, they seemed merely "like words on a page" and that the Scriptures were not being "illuminated." You also mentioned not feeling convicted. Your interpretation is that these experiences are possible evidence that you have committed the unforgivable sin and/or that the Spirit has left you.
But what if that interpretation is wrong?
What if all of these experiences (how you have felt) are NOT evidence that you did commit an unforgivable sin / or that the Spirit has left you? Of course, the evidence that you still want God's approval/pleasure sort of (or maybe completely) derails that unwanted interpretation.
My friend, your interpreation is wrong. But it is your choice as to how you will see it. Do you believe you commited an unforgivable sin? Do you believe the Holy Spirit has left you?
This morning, in the midst of doubts, I chose to believe that I did not commit blasphemy against the Spirit. I chose to believe that my sin, my words, have been forgiven and never were what Jesus was referring to as blasphemy of the Holy Spirit.
Batheltler01, would you do the same? It is a choice...
Dear reader, would you do the same? Is is a choice...
IT IS A CHOICE YOU CAN MAKE. IT IS THE RIGHT CHOICE TO MAKE.
Choose to believe the sin(s) you have committed have been forgiven, and that they never were what Jesus was referring to as an unpardonable sin. Choose to believe this. If doubt springs up (the "but what if..."), choose to believe! Choose to believe that what you did or did not do were, and are NOT, the unpardonable sin... they are NOT blaspheming the Holy Spirit and they never were... Choose to believe that GOD has NOT removed HIS SPIRIT from you. It is your choice...
Choose to believe!