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zHe shall speak words against the Most High,
and shall wear out the saints of the Most High,
It can be very oppressive here recently at times. I’ve been exhausted off and on (mostly on!) for…a few years now. I’ve always been able to walk into a room where others were present and sort of…feel on my skin whether there was peace or strife. Even before I received the down payment of the Spirit I could feel this. I think it’s because of how I was raised and the environment I was raised in.
But for the last few years, there are very few places I’ve gone where people are present where I don’t feel that heaviness on my skin. It’s so prevalent that I’m surprised when I find some…pocket where it’s NOT present. I can even feel it in here on my friends sometimes, that tiring and oppressive heaviness and exhaustion. That’s a little different though. It’s not coming from within them to press on me but is pressing on them from without and I try to encourage them because it’s distressing to me that they are being pressed on so heavy and I don’t want them to faint. It’s sort of like a constant feeling that never ends that it’s going to snow. You know that heavy and muffled feeling before it snows and while it’s snowing? Sound is different, muffled, sound acts differently, and the feeling above you is different. It’s sort of like that, just…a pressing on you…
It makes me avoid going out a lot of the time, like I just want to escape it and not walk through it.
That probably sounds crazy but…it’s very real and I can feel it.